心情

最近我的心情变得比天气还要快!—下了心情好一下子心情坏,不知道为什么?我的心情如此不定!感觉自已的心情一直在随着环境变!明明我知道心情是决定于心境而不是环境但我现在的心境真的很乱,因为我正在勉强自己做不喜观的事情。我不喜观读环境科学这一科却要学这一科,Ai ,在准备考试的我,难免心情底落,深受压力。所以我总会告诉自己要坚强面对所有challenges!无伦如向我都的妇决定要去拿心里学我不想再痛苦下去。我不想痛苦过这三年,然后又去做我不喜观的工作,就这样的度过这一生!但在我还没有读心里学前我要读完整个semester因为下个学期才能换去。所以无伦如何都要咬着牙根走下去。希望自己能够坚持下去,把这半年的时间过的精才,多认识大学的生活。加油!

Life at UKM!

I never ever throught i will study at this uni before..everythings is out of what i planned.i never thought want to study environmental science..n how stupid i m to put the course that nt my interest as first choice of my upu list...ai,that was the most regretful thing i have to done...bt made the choice to try love environmental science was even the bad decision as well, i think i had take wrong step from the begining....n now i suffer from my decision by studying something i don`t like.....but finally i make a decision to prevent myself continue taking wrong step....i want to study psychology,the course that i love so muchhh...even u ask me to sacrife a year waiting ...i still willing...now,i just wait i finish my first sem quickly so i can change to psychology ....by the way....hope i enjoy the rest few month at uni with the course i nt interest...

WE NOW AT TERENGGANU .....BEFORE OUR TRIP TO PULAU KAPAS.WE AT THERE AT EARLY OF MRG,SO U CAN SEE OUR TIRED FACE....
COOL LEHHHH,SUNNY GAL WITH BEAUTIFUL SEA VIEW.
4 GALS IN ONE CHALET ....
SO BEAUTIFUL THE LADY IN FRONT OF ME LEH....THOSE GUY WHO WANT TO NOE HER...MUST CHIA ME FIRST.

How is the view here ?nice? Did it as beauty as the person in the pic? Haha..jk ..frm here u can see half of the theme park leh

hi,
It time to sit and enjoy coffee from starbuck after explore Genting the whole day…-patrine

MY STORY

I had mixed feeling right now. Actually I cannot catch what I m thinking in my mind. But one thing for sure is that I got a lot of rubbish emotion and feeling keep accumulates. My heart is imbalance. I know if this condition continues, it will bring another wave of depression. I try my very best to manage my emotions and problems. Before I solve or manage my problems, there raise another wave of problems. I m getting more problems that unsolved. Or in other way those problems is tough to solve. It not as easy like ABC .Especially, I try to change my lifestyle .I want a new me, a more perfect me. Changing yourself really require a lot persistent and courageous, Cause I nearly give up of forget what I plan to change. Maybe there are too much things to changes. There still need more effort and longer time to change. That why every night is a nightmare 4 me. When I close my eyes, I see a lot of problems raise up. That sure lower down my sleep quality. And of cause I struggle for few hours before I finally sleep. The next morning, I wake up with tired body and headache.
Recently, I face many hard decision, Give up my thinking to reality, face a lot rejected, and as well as my relationship with others. It seem like everything’s came in one, People used to said when u bad luck, there more bad event following you. IT Seem like a curse for me. Since form 4, I face a lot of rain and thunder storm. Sure, I face a lot of failure and going thought a lot of down moment. My luck also din get well when I has decide to step into dark and horrible adult stage, it make my ways even darker .No matter how hard I try to find my ways out ,it still like without a dim of light to shine my direction .In darkness, of cause I fall down and hurt frequently . sometime ,I even feel numb about bad things happen to me. Even in emergency moment, I keep stay calm and cool .maybe it just small bad things compare to what I face before. I know there is a block that blocks my happiness .Tell u the truth; I lose my real happiness long ago. Do u know why I said real happiness .It because real happiness is a happiness u face that make u memories forever. The 20 year journey of my life , like walking though a marathon .I dun even remember what I have went thought this 20 years. Or even worse I don’t know who am I? And dun even knows which character I act in this society. I keep telling myself I want to be successful woman in this world .but it seems like a dream more than reality. I also not really sure how much dream I had throw away. Now ,i really wish raining stay away of me and hope to have bright future. I believe there better tomorrow waiting for me.