2010 - the JOURNEY i had WALKED

2010 going to pass soon....and raise the year 2011....

2010 is combination of 2nd yr 2nd sem + 3rd yr 1st sem....it was busy and rushing non stop journey.....but i believe i had a fulfilled 2010.....

there was too many happenings and things in year 2010....honestly....i forget mostly.....but one things.....photos....with those photos....my memory back....it like a piece of puzzle....that make a big picture of my journey......and i doesnt know where to start wrote about my journey...so i random jump to any point of my journey that i remember....

this year was tough year for me....in academic....it full of assignments.....with bunch of assignment keep us busy.....sure i face a lot pressure and stress.....sometime...it frustrated in stress life....the most harder is balance the study life, activities life and social life....there was up and down moment in every point of year.....however i m glad that there always angel came into my life during my dark moment and help me......my family and friends always my great social support for me though out the journey.....deep in me....i m gratitude....for every single falls.....i know who is angel beside me..... during photography session


my io assignment group

Visiting jobs malaysia

the most memorable assignment is the experiment one and the io assignment....io assignment was the most challenging one...with a lot practical.....the whole process i dunno what the outcome that lecture one....and on the process...we are blur.....we explore,understand, edit,ask.....it was the tougher assignments but the most interesting one..... one of the io assignment ~poster

in the midst of studying.....i still join some activities and program.....like Shengxue & Xiao xian, Aiesec ADND & EYLN, Astrolife camp and others.....it was a relieve for me when i pass shengxue to next batch.....the whole process it tough until i thought i will give up....but i m glad....i grind my teeth and it pass....i learned that things never become hard once u have gone though it....

shengxue cny dinner



Aiesec ADND

Aiesec eyln industrial tour

the Aiesec Korea programme....which we have chance interact with korean and tour around with them.....it was wonderful to know them....i have chance to try famous kajang satay...haha....u must drop ur jaw...when know i not yet taste it after been here for 2 year plus.....then it was my first time went to malacca....first time went to klcc skybridge....it look like i same with them....a tourist also....haha.....
1 korean with 5 malaysian

then the most memorable is astrolife camp....it was a new try for me.....to become assistant teacher was never in my thought before.....but just to earn some money and do something in my holiday....i went experience it.....i still think i cant be a teacher.....the camp let me learn a lot....it a truly differ experience.....
astrolife camp

when into 3rd year....i want try differ experience....i want more explore to the society even thought very soon i will.....i find part time job....and hence i worked part time for every weekend for a month.....working really take my precious time for assignment....so i have to rush finish assignment for weekday...


at first i work just want to earn money to buy the camera that i fall in first sight.....but at the end....my parents brought it as birthday present...but i still insist to pay for it.....i still assurance it.....but i m happy with my dear camera....even it not yet perfect without zoom lens....but i love it ....it tell story of my life....this is the most wonderful things i own....another reason i brought the camera is i can attend workshop to learn photograph.....i admit i m bad photographer but i still explore it and learn it....with the great tool....i wish i can take nice photo .....
photograph workshop

in this year....i had the chance to went taiwan for a week +....it was a extraordinary fun trip....who said travel with older relative cant be fun......i think it was another experience.....cause being the younger have many advantage.....haha....sure pay less...however i still spent a lot at that trip....all my taiwan relative was kind, generous....and they treat us very nice....it make me feel we are like vip....deeply i thank them for the trip...they bring us to many great place....tour around taiwan.....taste taiwan foods......cook for us...without them.....the taiwan trip will mean nothing......
wulai~one of the place i went

cooking from my taiwan's relatives....


after taiwan.....i went to singapore.....few day.....it was short and tired one....since i back from taiwan.....i manage to went few place....like orchard , bugis.....only.....what i saw is singapore life was so hectic and stressful....even few day...i can feel the intense....this few day....i more closer to my aunty which stay at there and meet only few time.....we talk a lot....she good to me....and i like her cooking....it taste like restaurant chef foods.....


most of my time was busy in my social life.....hang out with my friends.....psykidstrip.....drinking...eating....singing.....shopping.....watching movie.....with psykids....we have numerous outing.....sushi bonanza trip....movie ....etc....with this outing.....it make us more closer and know better among each other.....we also have tanjong rambutan hospital trip.....we have visiting the mental hospital....know how the life ppl there.....it was an open eye trip....
psykid's family trip


with my beloved family at fac nite

one of sushi bonanza trip with psykid uniform



i frequently hang out with bio gangs... one of our outing is went seremban....we shop....eat the most famous seremban sau pao....haha....all this social life make my university life interesting and colourful....thank to my dear friends and psykids.....u all color up my dull life....haha
travel far for a cup of coffee at coffee ritual


seremban famous sau pao


celebrating pumpkin birthday


with bio gang


we know for 7 year....



cool look

i city with shengxue gang


we eat all the dessert....u believe?

i wish to donate blood....but i fail pass the screening few time ...cause not satify the requirement.....one day....i manage to pass though all the scanning and i donate blood....i done what i want to do long ago....the donate blood process....i felt dizzy...at the end....my face turn pale....it take me few minutes to rest.....at the end....i make it...so happy i cant do what i want to...even my mom dun allow....but later she know....i got scolded....but i just wish i can help anyone who need it....but i think i better take care myself....since recently i keep fall sick....at present moment....i lose my voice....and few month ago....i had many sickness....i wonder is i get older....or my immune system not strong.....ya...after i back from taiwan....my asthma attack back...it take me few month to cure it......look like i need to watch up my health level....

on my may holiday....i filled it with travel....while the nov one....i started busy with my thesis.....ya...my thesis....i can describe it as big construction for me.....some time i worry for it progress....actually when i think it as whole it was harder....but when i break it down....it become more easy.....the whole process from thinking title- fill form- supervisor selected-proposal.....all was still ok for me....the one tougher is collect data....which i doing now....it was tiring....heavy task.....which i need approach them one by one.....once i think i need 200 subject....i can imaging i need approach 200 ppl...this thought can make me faint.....so far....i still got half to go.....ganbatte la....
we woke up early for world walking day

we had walked 2000 steps....yeah

when i wrote 2010...all the images....all the happenings.....all the journey....all the happy,sad, disappointment, touching,gratitude moment....all flash and play at my mind....i am glad i walked though the journey i had walked.....the journey when i though it was tough .....but it never be tough once i go through it......

Overall....my 2010 full of mixture of feelings.....it was slow progress of development and growth.....i believe 2011....will be more challenging once as i was a year where i leave school life and enter social life.....wish all the best for year 2011....

my secondary friend gathering at my room



christmas party with psykids + 2 yr junior



hang out at Pesta Tanglung



fun ok restaurant with psykids

闯进astro - 古晋之阅乐岛

3-5 日12 月

这三天。。。可说是一个我人生中的一个突破。。。为什么我这么说呢？。。。因为。。。。我竟然。。。想不开。。。为了钱。。。而当助教。。。我说过。。。我可以做任何工作但我不会当老师。。。虽然这次我并不是真真的当老师。。。但助教也算是一半的老师吧！！！其实。。刚开始时。。。我并不知道营的细节。。。只知道。。假期里。。。有什么节目就参加。。。为了过个更充实的假期。。。什么节目都可以。。。


营的前几天。。。我们有几次的培训。。。学些和小朋友沟通技巧。。。唱跳小太阳主题曲。。。学跳这首歌。。。真的好累。。。每个动作都很有活力。。。要奔奔跳跳的。。。可能是年纪老了。。。跳到上气接不到下气。。。。好累。。。好喘。。。隔天起来。。。全身都痛。。。对了。。在营里。。。我们都不用真名。。。小孩子们。。。很难去记得名字。。。所以每个人都有个可爱又容易记的东西，动物或饰物。。。我却是。。。itik姐姐。。。哈哈。。。我也做了可爱的鸭名卡。。。

整个星期。。。我都在忙培训。。。准备。。。终于。。。到了营的第一天。。。也是恶梦的一天。。。。因为这是我的第一次。。。第一次和小朋友一起。。。从小到大。。。我都很少和小朋友一起。。。也不喜欢。。。接近他们。。。感觉上。。。他们都好恐怖。。。虽然他们都很可爱。。。但当他们顽皮时。。。就会变恶魔。。。好恐怖。。。。这可能是我没有弟妹的原因， 所以不知道要如何和他们相处吧。。。。


第一天。。。我们穿上水手装。。。迎接小朋友。。。我的组-湖泊组。。。中年班的小朋友。。。都是9-10岁。。。我一个人带28位小朋友。。。由于是我的第一天，也是我的第一次。。。还不会控制场面。。。每次叫他们排队。。。他们就会排两排蛇队。。。我花了一段时间才把队排成型。。。但我已喊到快没声了。。。那天。。。也有好多突起没通知的事。。。 要有组的口号，要喊组口号。。。要教我从来没学过的唐诗。。。做为最后一天的结业表演。。。要改习题。。。整天。。。就是以个字。。。。《忙》。。。忙着带他们。。。忙着带他们上厕所。。。忙着纪律他们。。。忙着喊。。。忙碌的一天终于过了。。。回到家时。。。我累得躺在床上。。。累得醒不来。。。是我好久以来最早睡得一天。。。。

第二天。。。情形变较好了。。。可是那几个顽皮的小孩。。。变得更顽皮。。。这年龄的小孩。。。都爱赢。。。都爱争风头。。。爱枪第一。。。当有任何环节或要选代表时。。。一大群的小孩就会冲向我。。。要被选。。。

这个营是以三语来学习。。。第一天是马来语。。。第二天是华语。。。。第三天是英语。。。我发觉。。。现在的小孩学的东西蛮多得。。。有些是我从来没有学过的。。。可能是太久没接触一些小时候的知识。。。。发觉好多都还给老师了。。。其实。。。我和他们一样。。。也跟着学习。。。

第三天。。。。一却变得更好。。。只是。。。还是忙。。。忙着准备表演。。。可是。。。因为时间太急迫。。。排练过程并不是很顺利。。。一遍混乱。。。但还是没办法。。。练习时间真的太短了。。。不到四个小时。。。人数又太多。。。有百多位小朋友。。。我们都已经尽力了。。。

终于。。。结束了。。。虽然很累。。。但感到很庆幸！！！我终于熬过了。。。在营还没开始时。。。我一直担心。。。我会做得不好。。。还好我做的不错。。。一个人带30位小朋友的却。。。不容易。。。虽然。。。我有很多不足的地方。。。但我已突破。。。我一直觉的不能的事。。。《教书》。。。这是我第一次的尝试也是最后一次。。。我还是觉得我不适合教学。。。这次让我更确定。。。整个营里。。。我真的收获不少。。。认识和我一起做战的助教。。。虽然我们没有很多时间交流。。。但这几天我们相处的很好。。。很高兴认识他们。。。很高兴有个全新的经历。。。全新的体验。。。。让我的假期过的更充实。。。

记忆

我的记性越来越衰退了,很多东西，很多人事物， 我都记不起。。。

我知道我记忆很差， 好几次我尝试改进它， 但。。。它越来越差。。。有时，我真的觉得自已老了。。。也有可能自已服用太多药物。。在加上我爱喝咖啡。。。咖啡因可能使我。。。失忆。。或许失忆是件好事。。。好让我忘了自已的一却。。。过着全新的我。。。

一直以来我的记性都不好。。。很多东西。。我一下子就忘了。。。读的知识也总是忘得一干二净。。。每次在街头遇到熟人。。。我就是记不起人家。。。总觉得那人好面熟。。。但就是不知他是谁。。。叫什么名。。。妈。。总会问我。。。xxx 你好记得他吗？他是。。。。我总会说：我不记得了！妈，总会遥遥头。。。你那么年轻就忘了。。。我还比你好多。。。

其实，小时候的一却。。。我都记不起。。。我不知为什么。。。我知道的童年并不多。。。没有了记忆。。。以前的人生好像空白。。。感觉上自已好像。。。没活过一样。。。我怕。。我会像以前那样忘记。。。忘了我所做过的事。。。忘了我所认识的人。。。忘了我人生的美好时光。。。忘了自已所经历的路程。。。忘了我的故事。。。忘了我的人生的一点一滴。。。所以我在某某时候。。。开始写下重要的记忆。。。每当我读会去时。。。我会想起以前的事。。。从新认识以前的我。。。

当我开始写着部落格时。。。我想了很久。。。要以什么为主提呢。。。后来。。。我用了。。。《我的记忆》。。。因为我想把我人生一点一滴。。。写下来。。。让它帮助我的脑。。。记起我人生的故事。。以后。。。但我失去自已时。。。可以来这里。。。找回记忆。。。

我成经。。。为了收藏。。。记得我的人生路程。。。买了我第一个相机。。。我想把我看到。。。的拍下。。。把记忆收藏下。。。让未来的我。。。还记得那时的我。。。是怎样的我。。。后来。。。它成为我买相机的其中原因之一。。。

记忆。。。有些该记。。。有些该忘。。。或许。。。我已把很多伤心。。。痛心。。。的记忆给删除掉。。。不小心时。。。也把甜美的记忆给忘了。。。但好几次。。。好多那甜蜜。。。难忘。。。幸福的画面。。。它都会一直在我脑海里。。。重复的出现。。。那种记忆已深深的藏在脑里。。。忘也忘不了。。。

有时。。。我真的想记起来。。。但。。。有些东西我想把它忘了一干二净。。。可是我相信记忆是存在的。。。在我找不到的地方。。。无论如何。。。我都想记下我该记下的记忆。。。忘掉那不该记得记忆。。。让我的人生不是空白。。。。而是色彩。。。

心和主人阿

主人：我的心啊。。。你还好吗？

心：我不好。。。。一点都不好。。。
我现在活在监狱里，没有自由。。。
我日夜在做工。。。没有休息的空间。。。
我的睡觉时间一天比一天少。。。。
我的重量一天比一天多。。。。
我的力量快到零点了。。。。
我的笑容飞到别地方去。。。而我的忧伤一直跟着我。。。。


心：主人阿，你快救救我吧！！

主人：我的心啊。。。你忍耐一下好吗？我会救你的。。。相信我。。。

心：你要快哦。。。要不然。。。我会得心脏病。。。那时。。。我已经。。。撑不住了。。。

主人：好的。。。我会改变这一却！

u have change

Rain pour down from my eyes.
Weather change,
I see U,
Go far in front of my eyes.

The day,
We pass through,
Our hand remain still,
Our head remain high.

In my mind,
You are the eyes of heaven,
Bright one moment,
Dim another second.

Do u remember?
The time we cross our finger,
Promise in our heart,
That our hand will hold forever.

U & I,
Turn from liquid to ice,
Everytime i sense,
U have change.

I know,
I turn u freeze,
and u break my heart,
that never paste back.

No matter,
How is the weather change,
I always stand still,
and open my hand wait for U.

One thing never change,
The moment we glu,
The moment we smile,
I will never forget,
My dear friend.

(i wrote it long time ago, until today i still found it meaningful to me)

endless things

i dunno how far i can hold,

please let me go,

i dunno how strong i can be,

please dun test it,

i dunno how positive i can be,

please dun give me negative,

i dunno how much stress i can face,

please dont run an experiment on it,

i dunno how much fear i have now,

please dont think i m brave,

i dunno how much darken i can go,

please let my world shine,

i dunno how....

please...

我要的每一天

我要。。。 一张开眼睛， 就有一股力量。。。 对一天充满期待。。。 去做我爱做的事。。。 投入我有兴趣的东西。。。。的享受每时每刻。。。 开心。。。快乐。。。。 的过个充实的一天。。。

停！

我发觉人。。。

真的没有任何时候是没烦恼。。。

没压力。。。不担心。。。

很多事情都要想。。。都要顾虑到。。。

我在想要是我每时每刻都。。。有烦。。。有压力。。。有担心。。。或任何一种。。。

这样的人生。。。。

将会失去。。。享受。。。快乐。。。珍惜。。。活着。。。

人生。。。却是放不下的背包。。。没停过的忙。。。

或许。。。

我要真真的活在每当下。。。

体验人生的一却。。。

一步一步的走。。。

感觉活着的意义。。。

14 fundamentals of happiness

1. Be more active

2. Spend more time socializing

3. Be productive at meaningful work

4. Get organized

5. Stop worrying

6. Lower your expectations and aspirations

7. Think optimistically

8. Orient Yourself to the present

9. Work on a healthy personality

10. Develop an outgoing, social personality

11. Be yourself

12. Eliminate negative feelings

13. Develop and nurture close relationships because they are the number one source of happiness

14. Value happiness -put it first in your life

坚持的哲理

人生就像一场漫长的马拉松赛跑。他不在于速度有多快,而在于你能坚持多久。多一份坚持,就多一分成功的可能！

马拉松的乐趣在于体验一种自我挑战、超越极限及永不放弃的精神。当中最重要的意义就是当你精疲力尽,举步维艰的时侯,还能一步—步地到达目的地,完成目标,那种满足感和喜悦,绝对是超越一切,无法用言语来形容!

每一个人在生的道路上总会跌跌撞撞。无论是感情、学业、事业或在生活中都会面对失败与挫折,如果我们缺乏了坚持的心态,最后肯定 一事无成,庸庸碌碌的走完这一生。许多人在面对一些挫折的时候,就一蹶不振,不敢再去面对问题。小小的挫折就成为前进的绊脚石,轻易被困难打倒,从此就和 成功说再见!

文来自陈国强(资深辅导员)

10 个不嫁原因

1）我爱自由， 不喜欢被绑。。。。
2）我爱单身生活， 没有多一份烦恼。。。。
3）我对婚姻没有信心。。。
4）我对男人感到绝望。。。
5）我想过不一样的人生， 人生不一定要结婚。。。。
6）我相信没有永恒的爱情， 人是会变得，爱情不能保证不变质！
7）我不想增加人生的痛苦， 虽然我相信爱是甜蜜，但也相信爱会让人更痛苦。。。
8）我还没找到那个人， 能改变我的想法的人。。。。
9）我相信没有婚姻，我还是幸福，我还能快乐。。。
10）我知道我可能会感到孤独，孤单。。。但我会把孤独，孤单成为我的朋友。。。。

所以别怀疑我的坚持。。。我只是对婚姻有另一套的看法。。。我也相信我的想法不会轻易改变。。。因为它已成为我的人生观。。。。祝福我吧!

I am lost

recently many things happen, all keep accumulated into my small saturate heart.....i know maybe i will blow ....just the matter of time ...

time has keep me busy from managing myself......it make me no time to clear my toxic emotions....undoubted...i am stress this few days....i believe most of my coursemates have feel the same as well.....even though i still have time to sleep but it not adequate for me....sleep can help healing my mood....it did help.....when i take a nap this evening.......i feel myself alive after the nap.....i feel better....at least not a gloomy thought.....i dunno maybe i have some mild depression......but unseeable one......

in the mid of busy.....actually i feel lost...in term of what i really want and what i really done.....many things undone and messy in my life.....it was not organize.....deep in me .....i know something go wrong....but still haven figure out....i know i lost again.....a sense of helplessness came haunted me again.....everything seem to be fine at the surface....but i know inner me have many gloomy....with clouds shading the light of sun.....i dunno how to describe what happen....why i feel that....it simply adding of small pieces which i hardly mention the overall reasons....


i really feel gratitude to god for what i have now....i have a big family ...psykids.....all was my source of support......my parents for understanding me.....my best friend who i din really chat with her so long since i busy all the time......hope she will understanding me and it wont affect our friendship......i did scare....distance will cause us to be far....no only physical....but the time was the part.......but i believe we can held the strong bond since past have proof we did.....i know i need to find the source n find back myself.....i only need some rest.....before i begin the new journey.....

呐喊

呐喊

内心的累，

呐喊，

内心的无助，

呐喊，

内心的苦，

呐喊，

那没完没了的风雨，

呐喊，

那不能放肆的自已，

呐喊，

那沉重的肩膀，

呐喊，

那没人理解的自已，

呐喊，

那无法飞翔的自已，

呐喊，

那说不出口的心，

呐喊，

什么都不是的自已，

呐喊，

那不想活的人生，

呐喊，

我的人生。。。我的一却！

东于哲ThomasJack《爱的奇迹》MV完整版

<爱的奇迹> 闭上眼睛默默许个愿 就像甜甜圈又甜又圆 未来是停不下的冒险 却不感觉累 是否可以陪伴你们到永远 答案由你们来圈 不管答案是不是永远 注定到永远 每次遇到考验都想放弃当初的梦想 不过生活起起落落 才会感觉不一样 用耐心慢慢等待奇迹会出现 在 身旁 123 时钟嘀嗒嘀嗒响 来实现这梦想 U&Me 循着阳光的路线 创造最美时光 123 我们一天一天看星光已在发芽 U&Me 有你有我的地方 幸福就不缺氧 每次遇到考验都想放弃当初的梦想 不过生活起起落落 才会感觉不一样 用耐心慢慢等待奇迹会出现 在 身旁 123 时钟嘀嗒嘀嗒响 来实现这梦想 U&Me 循着阳光的路线 创造最美时光 123 我们一天一天看星光已在发芽 U&Me 有你有我的地方 幸福就不缺氧 123 时钟嘀嗒嘀嗒响 来实现这梦想 (来实现这梦想) U&Me 循着阳光的路线 创造最美时光 (最美时光) 123 我们一天一天看星光已在发芽 (已在发芽) U&Me 有你们爱的奇迹幸福就不缺氧 幸福就不缺氧 我爱上了这首歌。。。歌曲好有意义。。。尤其这段：每次遇到考验都想放弃当初的梦想 不过生活起起落落 才会感觉不一样 用耐心慢慢等待奇迹会出现 在 身旁。。。。带给我一种力量。。。让我相信。。。奇迹的存在。。。好好听。。。我一下听了好几遍。。。原来。。。快乐。。。可以是听好歌。。。。那么简单。。。

时间过得好快

时间真的过的好快。。。不知不觉。。。半个学期就这样不见。。。好可怕。。。我却在忙着做工。。。忙着功课。。。却忘了自已还活着。。。忘了去关心身旁的人。。。又没有好好的过每一天。。。生活总不停的赶这赶那。。。连走路的速度渐渐的变快。。。生活好像是个赛跑一样。。。没停过。。。到现在。。。我才忽然的发现。。。我越来越压力。。。才发现自已好久没休息。。。好久没看电视。。。好久。。。。没松懈一下。。。都怪。。。天真的我。。。一直以为。。。当我没做工课时。。。没负担时再来休息。。。但后来才发现。。。事实并不如此。。。只有会忙里偷闲的人才是最会享受生活。。。看来。。。我该学会停下脚步。。。再冲刺。。。

我不是个好女儿

对不起。。。爸妈。。。是我要求太多。。。。是我要求太高。。。什么都要。。。而且很任性。。。很不知满足。。。我真的太过分了。。。只为自已想。。。只想要的到这。。。得到那。。。只想要自由。。。只想要成长。。。却忘了。。。顾虑你们的感受。。。当你对我说：当你只想成长。。。往上爬时。。。不要忘记我们在下面等你。。。我听了。。。好心酸。。。我一心一意。。。我努力。。。都希望未来可给你们过得更好。。。我很想很想。。。让你们享福。。。老了有我来养。。。我想让你们过无忧的生活。。。但回到现实。。。我还是那不知量力的小孩。。。连自已都养不起。。。还要每天靠你们养。。。当我可能在三年或四年毕业时。。。我一直坚持要三年毕业。。。很多人都说。。。为什么不多一年。。。也没差多少。。。为什么要那么快毕业。。其实我真真的原因是为了早点赚钱。。。不用靠你们。。。也减轻你们对我的负担。。。我不知。。。要多久。。。才能让你们享福。。。也不知你们等不等到这一天。。。我每次都求上天。。。让我做的到。。。我都很努力的奋斗。。。或许我还没有什么成绩。。。我还是没有能力。。。只希望我能做的到。。。你们等的到。。。。

气！

yesterday i work at jusco, when i back i brought a 1.5 l mineral water, sushi, and kiwi....after i pay the money.....i ask for plastic bag.....since it hard carry heavy water around .....the cashier said: promoter r not provide plastic....what the hell!!! i keep insist one, so she give me.....but when i ask the staff there why the promoter cant have the bag??....they said it rules...i oso follow.....my goodness.....i know no plastic is environment friendly....i think the reason is they preventing worker from stealing....but it kind of discriminate for me....the way they treat to the worker there.....they also human, they work cause the need money....why every rules since to make the worker life difficult??? i believe their life was difficult tat y they work.....why the poor people have to bear all this things????.....some company really din care about the right of worker......i feel so sad.....the life at work much more bad than i thought....it more cruel.......this is the reality......i wonder how is life when i work????

思考

我越来越觉得。。。自已是个懒得思考的人。。。。思考并不深入细腻。。。可能人吗。。。。天生就懒得用脑。。。也因为用脑真的很吃力。。。它耗费好多力量。。。每当用完脑力。。。体力也跟着用尽。。。很多人会说： 人总用20%的脑的潜能。。。。但我只用了10% 而已。。。可能是懒或不回善用吧。。。

i think therefore i alive......modified from aristotle quotes: i think therefore i m....haha.....i should practice more thinking from today....if u saw me deep in my world....u know i m thinking and dreaming^^

if u saw me with this pose.....u know lar^^

情绪

还以为自已最近又失常。。。原来又是情绪低落作怪。。。刚才，读到一篇精神科医生的文章。。。我才了解！ 人吗，怎样都逃不了情绪的纠缠。。。总因它而起落。。。当情绪低落时，总觉得世界是黑暗。。。对世间感到绝望。。。没任何东西感兴趣。。。不想和别人社交。。。只想躲在自已的空间。。。等。。。我都有。。。还好。。。现在的我。。。情绪较好了。。。可是还没到达高点。。。

睡不着

不懂，虽然感到很累，但还是睡不着。。。不想睡。。。但需快点睡。。。毕竟明天还要上早课。。。但我。。。还是睡不着。。。脑海里想东想西。。。我不想睡。。。心情不好。。。起伏不定。。。最近。。。心情总是很糟。。。但想不懂原因。。。可能。。。工课上。。。感到一股压力。。。尤其是一起来的一堆工课。。。让我感到我生活就是一直再赶做完工课。。。无形中。。。感到压迫感。。。就因想早点做完。。。一直在拼。。。有时真的感到好累。。。但太过闲我又会感的不安。。。也不懂我要什么。。。

为了它。。。我拼了。。。

为了它。。。我好像工作狂一样。。。四处找工。。。谁叫我爱上它。。。从我第一眼。。。第一次看到它时。。。我深深的被它吸引。。。当我深入的了解。。。它时。。。我更爱上它。。。真的想拥有它。。。为了它我努力。。。做个工作奴。。。我要亲自赚钱买下它。。。那样我才会更珍惜它。。。希望我能拥有它。。。为了它。。。我拼了。。。。哈哈。。

回来大学已经4天了。。。我好不想上课。。。上了几堂课。。我还是一样的不想上课。。。不知为什么。。。。开始对上课厌倦。。。感觉上。。。这种生活好闷。。。好没新鲜感。。。或许我还想过着假期时那懒惰的生活。。。不想回到现实。。。的确。。。我很不想回来。。。不想面对一大堆的东西。。。忙早到晚的生活。。。不懂。。。我就是提不起努力上课。。。读书那种心情。。。还有。。。最近我的哮喘又来。。。每次还我睡不好。。。一直以为我的哮喘好了。。。但它并没有。。。只是好长一段时候没发作而已。。。这一却又要回到以前。。。不能喝冷水。。。不能吃冰淇淋的日子。。。希望我吃了中药会好如初。。。对了。。。前两天我做几小时的临工。。。在大学里派传单。。。以前我都以为这些是简单的工作。。。但才发现原来。。。最不简单的是。。。被人不理不睬。。。不礼貌的拒绝。。。有趣的是可以跟了解的人的肢体语言。。。从一个人的肢体可看的出。。。一个人要不要拿你给的传单。。。这也是一门很大的学问。。。不过。。。做工也可让我的生活更充实。。多与外界接触。。。学课本上没教的。。。但又重要的学问。。。好过呆在房间。。。想东想西。。。

停顿

整个假期。。。我好像停下脚步。。。没动过没走过酱。。。感觉自已好行尸走肉的假期。。。回想。。。我的假期刚开始是蛮充实。。。但自从新加坡回来。。。我的日子。。。每天吃喝睡看忙东忙西。。。好闷得日子。。。是典型的懒惰假期。。。可能太久。。。害我现在无法释怀。。。不想回去上课的日子。。。只想当只懒惰虫。。。。当开课日子越近。。。我越不想回去。。。但时间一到。。。我就的乖乖的回去。。。无论有多么不想。。。也要回到现实。。该梦醒了。。。收拾心情再出发。。。

烦

我可以选择不去烦吗？。。。也许可以。。。。那就是选择逃避。。。。可是那不最好的方法。。。问题还是存在。。。不想不说不做。。。问题还是一样。。。。。不懂。。。我做对不对。。。用对不对的解决方法。。。但我知道没有一个方法是完美的。。。只有最好的方法。。。我不知。。。我对不对。。。但我提起勇气要解决。。。虽然我不知。。别人怎样想我的做法。。。我也顾虑不了那么多。。。也许有人说我错。。。没顾虑每方面。。。也许我的做法。。。会带来很大的麻烦。。。会害到别人。。。也许我的做法。。。在帮忙解决问题。。。等。。。。是的。。。每个人都不同。。。每个人都有各自的想法。。。我不能控制别人的想法。。。。我也不能要求别人要怎样想我。。。时间。。。会告诉我。。。我做对不对。。。

1005 de tour

today once i opened my eyes....the journey begin......to the mines, pj and coffee ritual....wow...tired......at the mines.....i try the oyster porridge and you tiao....at one of stalls inside the mines....it was nice and taste good until i forget to take the photo of it....should try another time......then we rush to pj....chin fang went interview for job at osim....in the midst of rain.....we walk across....few miles .....finding the place....what scary is the thunder keep strike....finally we found the place.....but we all get wet....then we went jaya one cold storage do some daily shop.......next station....we went jaya 33 again for some daily need shop.....which we think much cheaper than cold storage......
after that we went coffee rituals for 2nd time.... my cappuccino ~ i love it
me + cappuccino = enjoy

it was first for chin fang and sau kheng to try out at coffee ritual....

on the way we back to lrt station....we take short break at a play ground...hooray....we see saw....and chin fang shout like crazy there....she make one of the pass by guy......shock ...ai...pity that guy............it was enjoyable and relax moment......when the see saw swing high ...it like i was flying ......all the childhood feeling back...for a moment i feel young....hehe...then i told both of them....if ukm have see saw o hav a play ground....it would be a good place to release stress...how good if have one......
see sawing...it was great to able bc to my childhood.....

jie jie is helping mei mei swing see saw.....heheheh

take 3 ......

then we back to lrt station, but .......we wait ....we wait....then the other platform have pass about 10 lrt in pass few min.....where is our lrt???? so many ppl with neck hanging and eyes focus on the track......but still empty....what wrong ??? more n more lrt pass the other platform....we tired of waiting.......ai..........when it will come??

this 2 person have give up standing waiting so they seat in the floor ................