我又再次迷失方向，
在那十字路口，
不懂我要往那走。

再次的迷茫，
让我变得更慌，
时间一直在跑，
更不上节奏的我，
开始感到压力。

或许，
我早应该认清，
我要的是什么，

但，
这一却已太迟了，

或许，
我一直不曾认识自已，

开始想，
梦想，理想，
是什么？
它们好像在岁月中，
慢慢的消失。

很多感觉也一样，
不见了。

我好像失忆一样，
突然，
什么都忘了。

是不是天太暗了，
我看不到，
还是我还在睡呢？

或许，
我累了，
该休息了！

在停了，
重新找回那个我，
那个曾经有过理想，
不知天高低厚的我！

未来，
我不知道会怎样？
我也不懂要如何走。。。

或许，
我不该想那么多，
尝试一步一步的走，
可能还会看到我要走的路。

Realize

it was suddenly realize that
my previous act has it mean.

That day,
i was lost direction while driving,
at that time, every where was having traffic jam.
i turn around and tried to find shortcut,
a way out that can save my time and avoid long queue.
i tried many time,
trust my gut and instinct,
even it proved wrong at the end.
it end up,
i taken more time and still stuck in traffic.

Today,
i realize, that day act symbol my present life,
i was lost in searching my way,
i try to find direction as well as shortcut of it,
i let my emotion and impatient flow with me,
and find it like a bull with eyes cover.
i does not want the ending of my future search end up like that day,
when seat still and think,
i should stay calm and go through the path slowly,
step by step,
until the mist is gone,
and i was clear where i want to go.

it was like a FLASH

FLASH....

to describe my life event,

it was a moment,

next moment i was with another new life.

WOW

i no have many time to thinK and flash back all memory,

not even have much time to adapt all the change,

suddenly,

it gone, another new in.

recently,

i mean this 2 to 3 month,

i live in the life of speed,

all is about speed,

i wonder is it because i work at RE,

so everything on my life was in express lane?

Life at RE always running,

after end it,

i thought my busy life will stop,

and i have a good rest.

but all turn opposite,

i still busy,

what i busy, is trip and socialise!

haha,

my life everyday fully pack for 12 day,

i only have 1 day good rest at home,

the rest is OUT.

my housemate keep seeing me disappear all the time,

i merely sleep at home for 5 day,

the rest i spent my night no where else.

i was amaze with my nomad life that i not even think of.

at first,

i thought it time for me to settle down after internship,

and think about my future,

yet, i have to much thing occupied,

until i cant breath.

this need to do,

that need to do,

i even no have time to write blog for my vacation,

will write one when i fully settle down at hometown.

after internship,

my first trip is with my fellow coursemates to penang,

it was memorable trip where we all gather for the last 2 time,

hopefully still can gather more in future.

the trip make me know my coursemate more better,

some i seldom talk to,

but this trip, make me know more about each other,

as well as know more,

where each going for their future,

wishes every of them find they dream, (for those who dont know yet, include me)

and live with their dream,

most important is do something that they like.

hope everyone achieve what they want in life.

all the best psykid.

opps..

seem my post gonna to end here,

but not yet,

i still have many things haven write.

second trip,

is a short trip to taiping,

the purpose is to stop over,

and taste en wan 's shop foods and drinks,

since she said is so nice and delicious,

it true as what she said,

the coffee and foods is nice,

but i cant write a good recommendation with my limited vocabulary.

after taiping,

i stay at home for 2 day,

next day,

i went to my kluang for my next trip with my shengxue senior,

we went to zenxing organic farm,

uk farm,

on the way back,

we stop at malacca,

for that 2 day trip,

i consume 9 glass of coffee,

it because all the way,

i been induce by the aroma of coffee,

all great coffee,

make me cant resist the temptation!

it was crazy,

and break my ultimate record in my life.

the next week,

actually is this week,

i busy socialize,

i not simply socialize,

actually another way to expose what i can do in future,

few opportunities came to me,

but one thing is i not sure what i want.

i got few choice,

all the choice want me back to KL,

it seem i have more prospect here!

but i dunno whether i will be back,

actually it was great when few people said:

i have potential in their field,

thanks for that,

hope i can find out early,

what i really one,

but not simple step in any field,

due to desperate.

it better start late,

but plan well.

that all today,

finally it end.

tommorrow will begin my sabah trip.

HOORAT for another journey of life.

simply enjoy my one month vacation,

sure,

i din provide much chance to do that in future,

it can,

depend on the path i take!

THE END OF INTERNSHIP

My ship have reach the shore,

it sign the end of INTERNSHIP journey.

as well as signal

FINISHED DEGREE

I had gone thought it,

sailing thought the rolling waves and thunder storms,

as well as raining and shining day.

when flash back,

it was a memorable memory,

that i still miss and happy that i have gone thought.

during sailing,

the whole journey it was so tough,

but when i pass thought it,

i am glad and gratitude for the journey i had walked,

i had become another ME,

the better the stronger ME.

Sincerely i thank my company for this intensive training,

i know without challenging and stress,

i wont growth and developed that much.

Finally week,

it full of mix feeling,

with happy feeling when i think of it shall end soon,

with missing feeling when i think i gonna leave,

with feeling stress when i think i want close more sales last week,

at the end,

i cant really enjoy the last few day,

however,

it was bad because my sales drop this week,

with 3 pending cases,

and many still on progress,

all was hanging around,

During my sales meeting,

luckly my boss din question me why,

but other intern been question about the drop,

i guess she no longer need question me about it,

since i leaving next day.

sometime when thinking of leaving,

my face will show a big smiles,

hooray....

all colleagues and interns can see it,

some envy that i can escape the rat race soon,

while i happy i gonna to put down the burden,

before i go,

i would like to make thing clear,

settle all the things i at my hand,

i use the last day to segregate all the piles into categories,

neatly arrange to make my supervisor life easy,

so she wont curse me when i m not there.)

i was workaholic,

that i strive to send 6 resume out on my last day,

other said why i so pia,

last day dont need to do anymore,

but last day still my working day,

i dont like stop doing nothing,

since company paid,

i have my duty for it.

but too bad, i not able to follow up the candidates that i had sent out,

and report the 3 sales i had close.

During last 2 day,

my boss approach to me again,

i guess my manager have let her know i turn down the offer last week,

she want me stay back and talk to me,

for a moment since she busy,

she make things clear,

i was given another chance,

to convince my parents,

and accept offer within one month.

honestly,

i m gratitude for chance given to me,

i really have to thank my boss and manager for the offer,

even i turn them down,

they still give me another chance,

my boss said she like me,

as the way i work and enjoy to have me on board,

both of them think i have potential at this field.

i guess so,

dealing with human is what i good at.

what make me feel more gratitude is,

i asked for reference letter from my manager last week,

i was so happy she willing to give me one,

she used to said,

i wont simply give reference letter if she thought the person not deserve,

i glad she said yes,

but she might need to talk to boss and gave me later,

at that moment,

i kind of confuse,

a reference letter have to take so long?

but i realize she actually wish i stay and gave me second chance...(my assumption)

last day,

i was surprise when i saw a letter on my table,

when i was conducting interview,

at the moment i felt so touch,

i felt the company treat me so good.

it great honor to be able to work at RE.

But too bad,

it not the path i will choose.

i will never forget the day i was there,

i will always appreciate everything that RE gave to me,

it teach me a lot,

and built right attitude with me,

i hope with all the foundation that RE laid on me,

which help me in the future,

at the end,

i feel proud as intern at RE.

it was my honor to be there.

Thank everyone who accompany me on board.

my workstation at RE