angel in dark

i always believe when god shut down ur door, he will open another for u, when u sad, he will send someone cheer u up, when u need someone, he will send an angel to u...........i do believe........when i down last time.......few angels appeared......they showed care to me.........they tell me somethings that touch me............they showed light to me............it was they little action that help me to walk out the darkness........but i wonder they noe they have change me......they have do some deed......they actually help me........but god will know............coz he send them to me............this few angels actually is my friends.....when i at very down moment...........they came...........they let me noe...........no matter how many worse things i faced........there still got the good one.......n i so touch to know some angels is beside me.......so for me........bad doesnt neccessary bad at all.........there are some good side..............n valuable one.............i found it.............which so precious for me............i thank them sincerely in my heart.............even thought i never go n tel them......u r my angels....that day.....u do n said this to me has change n lit me up............but i will keep in my mind.......i appreaciate the angels effords.........i appreaciate the gifts of gods.............it was great they still someone with me when i face the up n down moment..........it so significant to me that i m not alone...............today.......i had walked out the dark...........i never forget anyone who help along the way..........thankssssssssssss,arigatooooooo....

dont care...

i start dont care many things........juz let it go naturely.....many things is not our control.....why keep cling something we nt able to control...........yesterday i went out .......bt juz found out not matter how far i run....i stil got the burden of assignments with me....until i settle it.......bt i dont care much........i try my best to finish........when it time to play..i will...........i nt machine......i m human...i need rest and entertainments........while......i think i will treat tis sem as work hard n play hard.......bt i was glad........i was no longer cling to that feelings.........i keep try myself dont let myself feel down again........i will keep the up feeling...........no matter how is the condition i at....i believe there are way to adopt n face it........it just like ....like the photo below ...we saw it while walking.....it was miracle and a rare phenomeno....so great we able enjoy it...........can u see??? no matter how dark the sky.........sure there are some dim light shore..........wish everyone see the light and raise from tired n down moment.........especially to all my dear coursemates....i know many feel tired of many things........juz wanna wishes everyone happy and enjoy every moment even it was bad or tire one...............

心境变了吗？？？？

今天，一起床。。。心情较好。。。再加上今天只有几堂课而已。。。所以特别轻松。。。我最爱过着没被时间压迫的早上，然后可以慢慢的享用我的早餐。。。看看报纸。。。读读书。。。可能是我的低潮治疗慢慢有效。。。我学着接受，放开。。。。放下。。。这样。。。。我才感到自在。。。可能我太执着。。。。把不该放大的事情看得太大。。。改变心境的却不一样。。。因为我发现很多东西都变美了。。。。天空也变得如此的不同。。。。路旁的花花草草也变得好美。。。好自在。。。。好轻松。。。。好心情。。。。这都是我一直想要的。。。为何我总是追求其它上的满足呢？？？难道那一却可换来快乐吗？也许会。。。。但它是短暂的。。。是该时候该变了。。。。该改我的心境。。。。因为好多事情会为心境而变。。。好运也会跟随。。。就如今天，突然没上日语课。。。还好我迟出一步没赶到巴士，就这样。。。我朋友告诉我没课。。。好感谢他。。。现在的我。。。开始，不在乎很多东西。。。。就顺其自然吧。。。

转念。。。

问题不是问题，
它成为挑战。

快乐会跟随，
当你选择快乐。

生活不再是忙,
但你觉得生活是充实。

世界不再是黑暗，
但你看到光芒。

快乐

突然发现快乐可以很简单也可以很困难。。。。发觉身旁的人。。。有好几个都在低潮时期。。。都在寻找快乐。。。我也是。。。到底快乐是什么？？我还在寻找它。。。是不是忙到连时间快乐都没有。。。那我何时才能快乐呢？？。。。因为我可说是个工作狂。。。不懂得停下脚步的人。。。。只要停下脚步就会感到不自在。。。偶尔。。。忙使我更快乐。。。感到充实。。。快乐。。。我一直找它。。。不懂为什么我很难感到长时间的快乐？？我不说我总是不快乐，而是说我快乐很短暂。。。可能这时刻我感到快乐。。。再过一下可能失去它了。。。。虽然我知道快乐是来自内在而不是外在。。。。我还是学不会调整我的内在。。。我还在努力。。。希望我身旁的人，和我寻找到快乐。。。过着快乐人生。。。毕竟人生只有那一次。。。为何不选择快乐呢？？

累了

没停过的脚步。。
一直向前冲。。。
精神疲累的身心，
喊着。。。

沉重的背包，
带着它向前跑。。。

累了，
我真的累了。。。
该停了。。。
不要忙目的跑着。。。

厌恨。。。
我该放下了，
不想再折磨自已，
不想看到，
快乐离开我。。。

不要在逃了，
该面对他了，
不想伤口变得跟深。。
该说了，
该忘了，
该放下了！

某一天，妈妈对我说：你不要随便在网上乱写东西，尤其是私事。。。我慢了解妈说的这番话。。。我曾经因为写了不该写的东西。。。。使我和一个朋友因为它而吵。。。最近。。。很多事我看不开。。。。不懂。。。连妈都说我为什么可以因为一件事。。和他说了一整天。。。因为我真的在乎那件事。。。。我真的心理不平衡。。。。开始控制不了自已的想法。。。。的感受。。。我知道自已生病了。。。不是身体生病。。。而是心理病了。。。可能太累。。。可能太忙。。。。。我不喜欢多人。。。不想陪伴。。。只想一个人。。。只喜欢一个人在房里。。。我好像把自已关闭。。。关了我心理的那扇门。。。。很多事情让我很失望。。。让我看到现实。。。。时间。。。我要一些时间来调好心情。。。。有一本书说：。。学会放下， 原谅。。。。。。。很多道理开始在脑海里。。。。告诉我。。。应该放下而不是。。。。。我这个人就是不擅以表达感受，感觉。。。。所以可能被以为是带上面具。。。我的却是个爱压抑情绪的人。。。因为我不会表达。。。因为我还没学会。。。。很多东西我都在学习。。。也许我的脚步比人跟慢。。。但我还是每天每秒每分在学习。。。我知道以前的我，好多机会我都错过了。。。我知道过去不能回头。。。所以努力的为未来。。。可是很多东西，努力不代表成果。。。很多事情。。。人往往向外看。。。也许我该去学人生的现实。。。学会面对。。。才不会无助无奈的生自已闷气。。。。也许他说的对，我该向让我跌倒事情学习。。。