YOU HAVE THE SAME RESOURCES GIVEN TO ANY GREAT ACHIEVER

Life is an orchestra and you have the baton to direct the intepretation of life`s song.You have the same 8 notes from the scale given to Mozart,Bach and Chopin.

Life is a painting and you are the artist.You have on your palette all the colours of the spectrum -the same ones available to Michaelangelo and Da Vinci.

Life is an adventure story and you are the writer.You have the same 26 letters in the alphabet -the same ones used by Shelly,Milton and Shakespear.

YOU HAVE IT ALL~USE IT TO ITS FULL POTENTIAL.

i love ....

i love the environment near my block hostel....it so beautiful and so peaceful.....since my block at the top of the hill...i can view a lot beautiful scenery from there....it very wonderful place to stay and enjoy sunset....ya...one day after dinner i walked back with wai thing n en wan....it such a oppurtunity for three of us that we able to capture the beauty of the sunset.....it was so nice that the scene still vividly store in my mind..... today i stroll alone at the back there...i love to stroll alone...it calm my emotion...it bring me into my inner self...let me realise a lot of things and also the best moment for creative idea n life philosophies came across my mind....as i stroll , the breeze simply touch my whole body to give more comfort to me....which it symbolise blowing away all my problems and rain away from me.....in the quite moment ...i can hear the each step i make ...which gave me the feeling of living in moment....slowly i feel content....and relax....looking around me ....was green beauty which make me admire the beauty of nature.....at the moment my mind totally blank...free of anything...it like at the heaven...no doubt....stroll alone is a good terapy .......n i love stroll very much!!

Past!

This few day,
all my past came together.



when flip back ,
the thought in past.




it tell me many,
and it make me realize a lot.



something had change,
and it never return like before.




i can see,
past is gonna be history.




it getting far ,
far away from present.




even i try,
there always gap between past and present.




here i m,
making decision.





wave goodbye to my past,
begin with new future.




my dear past ,
u will free.




coz,
i will let u go.




time ,
will tell my past.





something that past,
never back again.




bye,
my past.



bye
(as tear roll in my eyes)

Home ~~

Maybe i have fly to long, Until i dunno how to back home, for the first few day at home, i doesnt have the feeling back at home, i keep asking myself, why don`t i feel happy to be home, what wrong with me, it look like i forget to bring my heart back.... but, today to very last few hour, which i gonna to left this home, and said goodbye to my parents, the feeling of home is coming back. suddenly i felt myself very lucky, who live in comfort zone, who being care like i was princess at home, who live in happiness, which i din take time to enjoy those moment. due to the fast n hurry steps i took, which always make me forget my own self,my origin... i forget to slow down my pace, and enjoy every moment in life. i love my mom n dad, i love my home, i wish i could be there with them, always with them, bt i have to leave them, to find a real me, a me that i can depend on myself, and could stand with my own foot.... i want to be an independent person, who can take care my own... i love being care by them, bt actually too much care can be harm sometimes, i want the grow in me. i wish this 3 year at uni, will make me a better person, i wish one day when i back here, i m nt me again, i m a better me.

FLY AWAY AND FORGET EVERYTHING!

wish i could fly way,
far frm here,
somewhere which i was a stranger,
no one can find me,
and no burden carry at my back.

wish i could fly away,
go somewhere alone,
a wonderful and peaceful place,
where only have happiness.

wish i could lose memory,
so that all the pain,
can get away from me.

wish i could lose memory,
so that i can forget myself,
n find a new me.

speechless!!hopeless!!helplessness!!!

many thing happen to me recently.....which countless
since it countless, of course i getting tiring....
i understand everyone hav differ thinking,
and oso perception to see on something...
the same thing,
one person can think as easy as abc
while the other think in very complicate way,
differ view differ opinion differ way of thinking...it look sort of normal
bt
i can make something worse...
like today i dunno how we express each other feeling ...
until we look like we use differ language .....
it like duck n chicken talk....
it never never never hav good ending
coz we both din try to listen n understanding each other..
look like both of us too stick to our point...
n at the end....i really speechless......
besides speechless i oso feel hopeless and helplessness............
i kind of feeling we getting far and far away...
nt only in our thinking bt also our heart,
i wonder how long this condition will going too,
both of us have our mindset abt each other,
it fact that we cant change ppl mindset,
if someone think we are like tat,
even u hav change,
the mindset in mind will remain same.
each of us talk like we are tat person,
each of us think like we are tat person,
bt actually we Are differ person,
and very very differ person....
i kind of hopeless how long this will continue,
i feel hopeless that my wish that thing gonna better
i feel hopeless.........
it seem it gonna sink n always become history ....and we never appear become like before....
time will pass,
soon it will become less intense ,to ignorance, to stranger......gua
mb will only to the lower level of hi and bye...
i feel helpless,since this wont in my control
i will let it go..........
like the ballon flew into air....
all the bad moment jus let it flew away.....
n the good always keep in mind......
whatever how it gonna be...
i will let god decide....
however i m ready to accept the worse....
bt i din wish it happen.

Friendship can be simple and can be complicated!!!

i dunno whether all of u agree that "actually friendship got many kind bt two main one is simple n complicated.it depend on what u think...in my opinion~~

simple friendship can be hi and bye fren , can be simple fren who laugh and talk whatever meet or can be trust fren who can exchange opinion.......and etc....

complicated frenship can be differ and always hav gap between each other...in other word is conflict, o other is gal anf guy frens who gonna become couple,...etc...

this has make me remember back form 2 & 3 period which i have simple n complicate friendship with 2 of them. my frenship wit z.h is consider simple fren who wit can share our life story and talk almost everything, while mine frenship wit s.h is complicated one who will keep argue and always have differ opinion.the three of us are very close each other...we are classmate n also always hang out together....that moment always sweet moment in my life.....wit two good fren....holding hand walk though that few year...i rmb we always go lib during recess,lib is our second home...we like being there....n thus we hav good relationship wit the lib teacher.....we gossip together....we are so close that we know each other family members.....and we always study together.....my friendship with zh can be said smooth and getting better.....while sh i did hav a lot arguement wit her,the most important is we hav big arguement until we din talk wit each other for nearly a month...so pity zh ,coz she hav to become middle person....however my friendship wit s.h still perserve even it not that good like before.....while z.h always my best fren and i share whatever thing wit her,i juz hope that the distance n busy wont influence our frendship....i did hope we can like last time 3 ppl get together and done all sort of things together...

ukm @ 1 year

time pass so fast.....i had been at UKM for a year....it make me remembered back the day i gt the offer from ukm....everything has change......nt according my plan...coz i gt course that i dun like...then i gave it a chance thus there i m .....come into ukm....it juz like a dream...i never thought of study at this uni before.. i came ukm with few of my hometown frens....everything start well...except that, i unable to hide my feeling of forcing myself study something i dont like...and also adapt wit strange n far environment ....it was my choice to go far away frm my home...coz i wan freedom...i don like this feeling of depend on family and want to learn how to live and care my own...since i hav grow up...i dont like to live in the shadow of my family ...i dont like to stay in comfort zone..coz life are not suppose to be smooth n comfort always...of course i did a lot effort to gain freedom frm my parents...i have to thank them ...coz of their trust and believe in me that i able to take care myself .....n i noe it hard to let for my mom to let me go......
at first ukm ,i gone though the tough mmp week...look like now is new junior coming in....n i gonna become senior very soon...ai,i m getting old....so fast time had gone n my junior year almost pass....i will miss my junior year...all the sweet memory.....it all so precious piece treasure for me....this year i had learned a lot of news things and also face a lot of challenge.....at ukm,many thing had become my first experience.....i really learn a lot and also grow up.....all the tough road have make me better n mature....when think back,all the bad n sweet memory i will keep it n think bc when i free.....













the first sem i study environmental science...the whole sem i struggle whether want to continue this course o change to psychology which my preference course ..i even think of changing uni... go utar n take psycho course there...since my cousin take psy course that....it encourage me to change uni that time...i did apply for utar during the intake in jan...bt at the end i din go coz of transport problem and the campus are too far and too troublesome to transfe...however,lucky i din go utar....if i choose go there then i will never have chance to study psy at ukm.....coz my second sem apeal change course to psy turn to be success...it such like a dream....that i never thought it will come true....i wonder whether it a good dream o a nightmare???the success of change course have become my life turning point....in first sem,the whole few month i struggle n fight wit my inner self...i feel i live the life i don like .....i have a dream but i din go to achieve it...this kind of feeling make me feel bad n self conflict and sometime i did blame myself...especially when i saw or heard how people willing go thought mountain n sea to achieve their dream........bt i din even make effort to go achieve my dream.....
















however i feel glad i did make second effort and appeal for second time.....and thank god.....i success get psycho on second trial....the moment i know i success...i feel so happy....this feeling was so strong and real and have disappear for such long....and it back.....bt i did hesitate whether want to accept o nt....coz i lack of courage and readiness to go though the process of paying to get what i wan....until now i did ask myself what make me so tough and determine and choose this path...mb it the love in psycho n also i wont like myself to regret whole life coz of nt choosing acquire my dream and also lose myself when force myself to walk path that i wont like........when i make decision to choose psy ...actually i hav prepare to go n ready to face what come in the way...i tel myself...nt to giv up even the sky fall down...
i did remember the day i noe i nid to take back all
the course i miss previous sem....i din cry for it...actually i did a bit regret













that time....in some sense....it look like i put myself in hot pot since i was in no worry situation if i continue environmental science......bt i choose this path becoz i really wan to study psy and i love it very much...the feeling of sacrife for thing u like really make u more appreaciate what u got in the process of achieve it..i really appreaciate and thank for giving chance to study psycho......it also make me proud n feel great becoz of the choice i make....n i proud to tell ppl that i m a psychology student..............bt i still appreacite the memory i hav during study environmental science....even it tough bt it left many impact to me....especially went to pulau kapas for field work...the first time do snorkling.....have a study trip.....and have a lot fun with my ex-coursemate......n also most unforgetable is first time being shock by jelly fishes...the first time get close with the beautiful and colourful coral reef and fishes.....after all, i never regret study environmental science...it make me feel more closer to nature.......










































the pulau kapas trip will always left many sweet memory to me....the fun moment with my ex-coursemate n to my nature lover lecture.....study environment science make me know more about our mother earth and also cultivate love to it...all abt environment issue catch my eyes n attention on that time.......i did thought if i continue environmental...i will make myself change my perceive and think myself as the earth saver who have the responsible to save us...and become angel....hehe........it the way to comfort myself to stay and move forward in this course........

my new life begin when i change to psychology......it started from the moment i got the letter of success appeal.....at here i would like to thank en wan.....she done a lot in helping adopt wit my new environment...she intro me to psy coursemate....and also borrow her note....n also teach me when i dont understand n tel me many things abt psy......besides en wan, i also wan to thank all my psy coursemate...they all are so friendly and helpful.....they make me feel warm n make me feel like we are a family....i so happy and glad to be one of psykid.....it sure pleasure for me.....


































































the psykids genting trip that we have reecently hav make every psykids more understand each other and deeply know each other....especially the 'pillow talk'......
.....i hope gt more such trip...it a good way increase the closeness between each psykids


Things that pass will gonna to be history the only left is the sweet memory in our mind....first year in ukm......hav left me a lt of new experience n memory....i look forward my second year n appreacite every moment of my uni life!!!!one important things is to life in present and enjoy every moment....all the best.!

人生！

我不祈求无风无雨的人生，
我只希望当自己在风雨中坚强。

我不怕跌倒，
我只怕自已没有勇气爬起来，

我知道人生有无数的无奈，
我只希望自已可以去接受。

我不渴求别人和我想一样，
我只希望可以互相了解。

Hurt again!

I m hurt again,
it more pain than last time,
even cry cant even reduce my pain,
nothing can make me feel better.

I wonder how long i can persist,
living in the worry and conflict,
i wonder how much i can hold,
without cross the limit i can go.