我要的是不一样的人生，
不是那平凡又无味的生活。。。
突然很有感触，
很想过非一般的生活，
过这那有使命感的人生。。
不是为自已而活，
而是为社会奉献。。。
我想乘着我还年轻，
还能做些别人认为疯狂的事情，
那怕我会一无所有，
但我却过这有意义的人生。。。
我能做到吗？
我有勇气去走吗？
我能不能放下我的责任，
现在的答案。。。
还是不能！
但并不表示，
我以后不能！
It have been 7 months since i stepped out the university door,
This 7 months, I have gone throught differ life,
One things i am glad is I like my life now,
Even though many happening that really smack me and give slaps,
That wake me up and bring me to reality.
Frankly, i feel i am blessed person,
Till today life was smooth to me,
I always tell myself i am very fortune person,
As i always have many great people come into my life,
Each of them make my life difference.
There are people willing to guide me and taught this ignorance kid,
and there are person who appeared in the NEED momment with a pair of hand!
But life is changing,
as today is never be the same as yesterday,
when faces changes,
sometime i still on the unacceptacle stages,
wonder around with my emotions,
Many happenings recently,
Which gave me a stunt and slap,
People who wake me up,
I have to thank them,
i always have a believe Thank those people who make my life suck!
Yes, they make me hurt,
But at the same time they grow me,
without them, i still in ignorance stage.
They told me what i still inadequate,
They let me know how much efforts i need to put...
They words as sharp as the knife, as clear as water...
It hurt definitely,
But rather be hurt,
It drives me to be better me,
As life always taught me,
I need to improve!
As time pass,
I understand why i am like this,
I like a challenge life,
which it make my heart pump faster and adrenaline rush,
that make sense when i like to ride roller coasters,
It seem able to make me feel my heart pumping,
and once again i feel i m alive...
In life when we open our heart and eyes,
we can realize a lot of things,
I m still learning and improving,
I know i am neither too young or too old,
I have many dream that i wishes i can achieve it,
but it take time,
Sometime i hope the world create a shortcut for me to achieve!
I always believe,
There are nothing greater to have a dream and persue it.
But recently one of my friend,
make me realize dream is important,
It is truth to focus on dream,
But at the same time,
Life still have many things u need to concern not only your dream,
what is the purpose when you achieve to the top,
Yet you are alone and you seem forget what the reason you want to be at top,
Because all the while what u focus is the destiny not the passion!
In life,
I have experience what it mean doing what you like,
One day,
My friend told me,
It very differ from what i can see you from other who have worked,
you seem to enjoy what you doing.
In fact,
I did.
Up till now,
I still look forward everyday of my day.
There are one day,
when i saw 2 waitress at restaurant,
what i can see the differ of them is,
one is so passion and enjoy her work
while another one work for survive.
Then it make me understand how important to doing what you like.
But here is the ponder:
If you need to make choice between what you like & materialistic, what choice you will choose?
In short,
this 7 months is the wonderful journey for me,
from the day i want to start my another chapter here,
where i have no base, no job, no plan, and only a thought!
till now,
everything was far from my imagination....
I appreaciate every moment of my life,
As i always believe,
Everything happens for reasons,
Maybe i cant see today,
but i will realize it some day in future.
它捆牢了我好久，
每次为了它我就情绪化，
一次有一次的被它主宰，
也埋怨好久，
一直为它抖抖转转。。。
今天我终于想通了，
也做了决定，
面对它，处理它，接受它，放下它，
我不想在这样下去，
其实，
只要换个观点，
它就变得不同！
我一直看到的是我没有的一却，但却忽略我拥有的一切。。。
决定放下它，
那感觉好好，
不在被困着，
从今天我会专注我要的，不是不要的！
