好累，
真的好累，
无论做什么，
没一下子，就感到好累，
体力不足，
内心也是，
感觉有好多事情，
好多东西要做，
一大堆的工课，
没完没了的忙，
也是我自找的，
谁叫我没事找事做，
不得让自已闲一下，
不懂，
有时真的感到很矛盾，
当太过闲时，
就感到很无聊，人生没意义，
当太过忙时，
就会期望这一却快点结束，
真的不知要怎样才能让我满足，
我承认我是个不知足的家伙，
一直有没完没了的欲望，
有时真的让自已好累。

SUNWAY LAGOON TRIP

22/1/2011
it was a fun weekend,
which i went to sunway lagoon today,
with sharon and her friend roanne,
the first place we went at the theme park,
is the SCREAM PARK,
a person who fear of ghost,
who dont dare to watch ghost movie,
went into dark and scary ghost house,
before enter,there was a ghost ran out to scare us,
i was about to run out the entrance,
but since it was new experiences,
i turn my fear aside and pretend to be brave,
there was so dark inside that we barely watch our step,
the three of us hold our hand tight,
then more and more ghosts appeared,
but i could see they make up,
so i become fearless a bit,
suddenly an idea came into my mind,
they want to scare us,
maybe i could shout at them and scare them,
some i even said hi to them,
it work,it not that horrible than what i been thought,
but in the middle of fun, i did regret why i came in and wished to get out soon.
next,
we went to PIRATE'S REVENGE & TOMAHAWK
which turn 360 degree,
it was so adventure even it was my 2nd time ride on it,
it really make my stomach roar and my blood pump fast,
when it at 360 degree which we turn upside down,
the reverse view image, the frequent up and down in few moment,
it really make me felt a moment of horror,
of course, i scream and shout our loud,
it sooo unhealthy if i din release my fear out,wakaka
then,
NIAGARA FALLS FLUME RIDE & COLORADO SPLASH
this 2 ride make us wet,
both was really fun and excited,
it was my first try for both,
so far it was great experience,
follow by is,
ARCHERY,with few good try,
KAYAKING with roanne,
she had experienced on it,
so she taught me how to turn left and right,
how to reverse,forward and turn around,
kayaking really require a teamwork,
without cooperation,
the kayak wont go anywhere u want,
it my first experience,
it was very tired and required a lot of energy,
next next is,
ALL TERRAIN VEHICLE (ATV),
we queue up about half an hour,
just to ride this look like mountain motorbike,
it was like riding a motorbike,
haha,
sound like i know how to ride motorbike,
actually it my first time ride motorbike,
but this vehicle was so tough and it can pass though mountain,down the hills,
a nice try,
which i consider a pass driver.
next was the most interesting and it was the most memorable ride i remember is
FLYING FOX
it was as what it name,
we are flying...
yeah, with 2 extension line,
but the waiting moment was too exhausted,
since it was so attractive,
many people queue up to play it
finally,
it my turn,
one steps ahead i fly....
wooooo.....it was so fast and it seem like flying...
it was very fast which take a few second i reach the end,
if i had another chance,
sure i want to have it again,
after played whole morning,
we felt hungry and no energy,
it was lunch time,
and i felt sleepy,
i remember, the flying fox's crew asked me: how u feel the game?
i reply: sleepy...
haha,
so with a cup of coffee and an ice-cream as my lunch,
we continue held to water park,
here i came,
to feel the wet...
sad,today surf beach had closed.
CONGO CHALLENGE & CAMEROON CLIMB
i tried them before,
but it never too bored to play again,
at the camerron climb,
me and roanne spin around in dark long loops tube
in extreme fast speed,
at first i saw nothing since it too dark,
then it turn bright when out of tube,
another i forgot it name,
i paired with sharon,
at first i told her it kind like cameroon climb,
then no fun cause quite same,
but out of expectation,
it far more adventure than i thought,
in very fast speed we gone thought the open tube,
all the way down in the 45 degree pathway,
then held up another 45 degree before end,
wow...what i would say is,
it was so excited!!
i shout in excitement all the way,
next,
is congo challenge,
a six lane with a piece of carpet look plastic,
we held down a tall and all the way down the path,
at this ride,
i knot my hand on the lane,
when i speed down without control,
another bruise again,
after played,
i found i hurt myself a lot,
with some bruise on my hands and legs,
i felt whole body muscle pains,
on the way back.
ya, i was kind of disappointed cause i cant taste the surf
due to long fingernails
i cant believe,
fingernails was a criteria for playing surf,
i thought the only game i cant played is due to my height,
but i never thought my long fingernails cause me cant played,
so i stand aside to watch them play,
before we back,
we enjoyed at the pool,
swimming and relaxing,
i even sleep on the pool,
with the cool music,
the continue wave,
by silent myself from all day busy playing,
it was the great enjoyment i felt,
i really can sleep on pool.
that came the end of my second sunway trip
thank sharon and roanne have fun with me,
thank michelle,kelly,qiqi,sharon,wanlin..too...
hope i din forget anyone....
it was a great day for me,
that i wishes to jot it in my memory,
the end of my 2nd sunway lagoon trip
bye.

Rejections

i believe everyone doesn't like it,
some even fear of it,
i m the one who fear of it,
it was hard to face the rejections that appear,
some even harder to rejects other,
i m the one too,
who fear to say 'no' when it need.
since December,
i started collect data for my thesis,
i had face many rejections,
from the first moment i started,
fear have already run into my body,
i asked many but some rejected me,
when i thought about my target,
200 subjects seem so far from me,
in my mind,
i can imagine i need to ask 200 people to fill my survey,
wow,it such a large amount,
but day after day,
rejections and fear of its,
getting less but yet i still have,
by the end of the day,
i manage to collect 154 subject,
it not much but i had try hard,
i photocopied 350 copies,
i guess i had been reject 100+,
but, rejections make me grow,
i learned to accept,
i learned to thank for rejection and keep the smile with me,
even thought many time it weaken my motivation,
yet,
i keep going and cheer up,
the next person wont like to help me with sour look,
so, the smile had to be with me,
what the great lesson i learn is,
how to keep up the energy when it come,
how to overcome the fear of it,
so far,
i guess i had experienced it,
for me,
rejections is just another milestone to success,
the theory i know,
no matter anythings,
we sure face 'bad' before we feel the 'good',
there are many 'no' before we hear 'yes',
it just a principle of life.
which i ready to accept it,
and lack fear of it.

这时刻的我

现在的我，
对人生有很多感触，
有丰富的感觉，
很多想法一直在脑海里打转。
最近，
我感觉到自已变得很情绪化，
对发生的事情，
都很有感触，
都会有深刻的感觉，
每一件事里，
我都会去找它的意义，
我会去理解为什么它的发生，
努力的体会人生道理，
和人生老师学习，
又发觉，
每件事的发生，
必有一定的原因，
了解它，
我才发觉，
今天这样的我，
也是有它的含义在，
我的好坏都有它的道理，
因为我知道，
未来的我，会告诉我，
为什么会有，这样的我存在，
时间，
会告诉我，
现在的我，为什么是这样的！

today's lesson

since last year,
i learned a precious lesson from life,
on every darkness,
or
when i face problem,
there always someone appear in my life,
help me out,
give me social support.
he/she came in the right time,
it like some kind of arrangement.
i learned that darkness are not always bad,
it because i see dim light when it dark,
it tell me who is my angel and devil.
hence,
i have a belief that,
when the Buddha close one of my door,
he will open another window for me.
today,
it was another proof for it,
when i face tough problems,
a no choice situations,
Buddha got someone with me for the first time,
he bring me another angel for the second time,
who solve my problem for long time.
deep in me,
i really feel grateful,
what i have is far greater than what i dun have,
it been in my thought,
for a while
that someone can drive me back.
today,
it come true,
i start to think how amazing is it,
what i thought it true sometime,
since,
someone can be my angel,
i wish to be other angel,
as a kind of pay it forward,
when i receive,
i shall giving.

感触

刚才，妈妈告诉我。。。表妹坐的飞机。。。在登陆时。。。走出轨道。。。飞机突然冒烟。。。有些人受伤。。。很庆幸。。。我的表妹没事。。。也没受伤。。。这件事。。。突然让我有很深的感触。。。感觉生命很脆弱。。。生命可以很长也可以很短。。。生命可以在任何时候停止。。。不管你有多年轻有多老。。。它可以因为车祸。。。跌倒。。。意外。。。生病。。。等。。。任何事情使它结束。。。我不能以为自已还年轻不会死。。。这一却。。。可能是我一直把活着当作是理所当然。。。我在想。。。要是我突然死了。。。死之前。。。我最想做什么。。。我最想的是谁？？。。。我不知道。。。但我知道。。。我不想带着遗憾离开。。。在最后的时刻。。。才发现我没有真真活过。。。没有认真地过每一天。。。发现好多事情还做。。。要是我明天死了。。。我最遗憾的事。。。我不曾亲口对我父母说：我爱你。。。那三个字。。。每次都停在嘴边。。。因为没勇气。。。因为不曾说。。。所以说不出口。。。还有我会遗憾的事。。。是没做我一直想做的事。。。那就是紧紧地拥抱他们。。。好几次。。。我想做。。但做不到。。。每当想要时。。。发觉双手好重。。。重到提不起来。。。但我。。我不想。。。一直想做的事。。。只到死时。。。才有勇气。。。或有可能因为没勇气。。。而遗憾。。。我想。。。我会努力。。。克服。。。做到。。。这一却。。。让我没有让这遗憾的存在。。。做到活在当下的每一天。。。竟是明天要死。。。我也没有遗憾的结束我这人生。。。。

听不到，说不到的经历

没多久，我完全失声，说不出任何一句话，那时我不敢接触任何人，不敢接电话。。。因为完全没声音。。。怕和别人说话。。。突然感到没自信。。。没有安全感。。。那时，我才真真感觉到哑巴的人的感受。。。不能说话。。。不能表达，传达信息。。。感到。。真的很捆牢。。。很无助。。。还好。。。只是几天而已。。。但我深刻的感受到声音的重要。。。

今天我的右边耳朵突然失灵。。。好像有东西塞住。。。蒙蒙的听不清楚。。。这时我只能靠我的左耳听。。。一整天很不舒服。。。感觉好像少了东西一样。。。做什么事都不顺。。。整天就如我的右耳一样的模糊。。。上课。。。又不能专心。。。因为阻塞。。。或被盖住。。。所以一直都听到自已说话的回音。。。总之不好受就对了。。。

一直以为这些都是我理所当然的拥有。。。但在失去时。。。才发觉。。。自已从来不珍惜过。。。没感恩过。。。我有一个健全的身体。。。健康的活着。。。虽然我很常生病。。。但我拥有的东西好多好多。。。顿时。。。我感到幸福。。。感恩我所拥有的一却。。。也不在去埋怨没有的一却。。。最后希望我的右耳早点好。。。让我恢复我的听觉。。。

1.1.11

今天1.1.11,
新的一年，对过去的一年说再见，
我以最平凡的方式跨年。。
没有跑到老远的去，看烟花， 和一群人高喊庆祝。。。
或许，
去年体验过那种感觉，今年就平静的度过。。
2011 年的第一天，
我什么感觉都没有。。。。
一却是一片空白。。。
或许，
新的一年。。。
只是在日期上的改变，
对我却没有很大的意义。。。
只是新的一个开始，
另一个句号。。。
不懂。。。
这只是另个奔波的一年，
今天，
我和平时一样。。。
没有任何不同。。。
我只希望今年我会比去年更好，走的更远，更进步。。。
今年会是特别的一年，
毕竟今年我会从大学跨进社会，
很快我就要离开大学，朋友们，
开始觉得时间过得很快。。。
不知不觉。。。
我快要毕业。。。
刚进来时，还觉得毕业很遥远，
可是，现在只剩下短短的几个月，
我开始，
捨不得这里的一却，
不要觉得还有很长的时间，
这么快就不捨，
其实不是，
时间总在你不留是流失，
所以，
我会珍惜今年，
珍惜和我身旁的朋友，
体验我还没体验的大学生活，
做我想做但还没做的东西，
把我最后的学期过得充实又精彩。。。
在不久，
我就要踏进社会了，
我是充满期待与等待。。。
最后，
新年快乐！