too much things,too little time

suddenly i feel stress....it feel like a bag of burden carry on my shoulder.i can feel my neck muscle clamp together which show tiredness....my emotion run up n down ...i dunno whether this is because i too greedy.....i take so much .....until i have no time to swallow.......i need to deeply things abt it.....mb there are somethings i need to give up.........this few week....my life was marathon.....the assignments...the 2 porposal really take away most my times.......plus extra japaness....which take many times to revise.....i did consider to drop it....bt be4 i make decision....it was too late for dro[ n tarik diri..so at end i no have choice bt continue.......at first, all things was ok for me.......i feel deep passion in doing it....bt when many add up together...my passion n energy getting low..........nw i cant even find motivation in me.........due to academic, i skip many activities......i left many works undo....n queue up......hui xun...ca calling.....i reallyy feel bad and uneasy to let many things unclear.....this few days...i din have good sleep.........life getting less control.......i feel tense in myself........n also feel my body start to react with my busy life........there are some sympton of sickness in me......i nt even hav any time for buy some cny clothes........i can feel my life is all abt running......n i face my laptop n do assignments alll the time...n my laptop also show tiredness n keep shut down coz overheat....ai......i guess soon i need change my spec...it been 6 week....i nt even have any time for study.......i so scare when thinking exam.....when thinking my results..........there are bunch of books n note for study n read....bt it stay there untouch for so long..........honestly i put many effort to do many works..........i keep doing it day n night...n left no time for fun....no time for entertain.....i rmb one of my fren ask me....how is ur life after study psychology? ???i tel her i feel differ after the change...........no skip class, i nt forcing myself studying......i nt force myself doing something i dun like..........i m doing wat i like.....i m doing wat interest me.......this make me feel good even it was busy.........i found out it so important do wat u like...........coz it make me persistent and go throught challenges.........bt this kind of passion n interest look like going to fade......i need some rest to charge my energy....i need some mental nutritions .....i need some motivation............i need REST ...........

stay aware= stay conscious

i juz realise how important awareness it!!! it was important as stay aware-stay conscious..we need always aware wat environment change....how is the climate become....how much differ today environment wit previous......we need aware wat other thinking, feeling .....it very important that many time we miss see many thing coz unawareness....many things happen coz of nt aware...when we nt aware what happen to a relationship, nt aware finance status....nt aware of world issue....nt aware the technology change....nt aware the differ of many things....nt aware there was change...then we may get into big trouble and problems keep follow us becoz of lack awareness.....it we can simple pay more attention....more aware to wat happen to our environments.....to relationship.....to many things....then many thing can be prevent!! i always lack of this awareness.....tat why it cause me a lot trouble and headache...ignorance is when we unaware....what we don know what we don know? when we didnt hav self-awareness...we tend to live blindly...nt aware wat wrong u hav done...nt aware wat are u lack of........frm now on i will practice my awareness...stay aware n stay conscious.

8 most demand field in 2010

i saw this article at nanyang newspaper today....after 2008 and 2009 finance crisis....some experts predict 8 most demand field worldwide......the list.....

1.medical sector
2.it
3.environmental science
4.biomedical
5.material...tis one nt sure
6.logistic
7.actuarial
8.hotel management

it not surprise me when i saw my ex-course environmental science on the list....bt once again it influence my thinking.......deep in me ....i know environmental science will be demanding in future.....i know it provide more work oppurtunities.....frm wat we can see....most of countries is promoting and increasing the environment concern awareness.....here...we can predict future company , government ....need environment experts......besides that.....nowaday...u can hear a lot of natural disaster n climate change news that happen in many culture.....it has tel us that the mother earth is warning us......so....we try prevent the real n big disaster happen in future...

god had prepare and give me this path at the very begining......bt i against it.....i prefer path i like bt full of difficulty......actually i quite hesistate at the moment making decision......when i gt the approval of change course frm environmental science to psychology....i still hav few % of concern and doubt whether which should choose.....however.....this had passed....i was half way of it....there are nt way to return.....there was no suppose gt any regret.......once i make the choice.....i have to bear anything i going to face........who noe.......psychology might in the list of most demand field 2011 ..........

Rainbow on my glasses

it was strange phenomenon...bt it happen....i was seated in class.....then i feel tired n lay on the chair...suddenly....i saw rainbow reflect on my glasses......it so beautiful....i can see blue,red,green,yellow....vividly.....wow...i keep search why it happen....mb the sunlight shone through the transparent ceiling ...n tat cause it....i guess!! i like rainbow......it always mean good or better luck.......it because rainbow always appear after rain which it after difficulty and hardship.....rainbow always appear after rain.......something tat tell us that there are hope after difficulty..........mb tat rainbow try tel me that i hav gone throught the hard time....now it the time for better luck and oppurtunities...........i did hope my life will be like rainbow.......colourful and hopeful.......every colour has it meaning...........every color has it emotion.......and one important things is it cheer me.....it make me feel happiness.............it make me feel there still exist hope......hope for better future.............plus i m the kind of color lover.......n rainbow has all the color i like......for me life suppose to be as colorful as possible.........juz imaging how dull life was if it was only black and white.................tat why i hate dull n boring life...........i wont mind i busy whole day....instead i m the kind of person tat cant stand to live in boring and free life...........it make me feel uneasy...mb i m born workaholic....haha....sometime...i can imaging my future life......which is work ...work....work ....non stop......mb.............it quite high probablity.......the rainbow really make my day...........i did hav happy day today.....thank god for let me see hope through rainbow n it make me feel happiness............something i keep chase it all the moment.......in my life............

rainbow=hope

1st japanese class

it was my first japenese class....i has miss 2 class last week..........so left out a bit.......bt learn japenese was fun except no beautiful and pretty lecturer like frau yap....dunno why i learn japenese bt keep remember her......i think i should take german...really miss her........bt i m nt L one............be4 class start i was wait there with the hope of japanese lecturer....to my dissappoint it was malay lecturer.......ok lo....................i guess i need higher level baru gt chance to have japenese lecturer.............now was practice write japenese...........it tough of course...........bt it was begining........sure......it will get more easy soon...........at first i thought i gonna attend class alone bt to my surprise, my ex coursemates take japenese tooo....so good.....gt someone company me....hehe.....it will be alot fun......

感恩。。。。

在我最低落的时候，在我最迷茫的时刻，在我最无助的时候，让我深深感受到亲情的重要。
刚和爸妈说完电话后，我忍不住眼泪的流了下来。。。在我最脆弱的时刻，爸妈给了我最需要的关怀。。。。很多时候，很多事情靠一个人独自解决是不行的。。。我一直让自已一个人承担一切。。尽量不麻烦别人。。但某件事发生后,爸妈一直在我身旁帮助我。。。虽然很多事只有自己可解决,但家人的支持可给我很大力量。爸那天说:什么事情都要和我们说,让我们知道发生什么事。。。。其实面对问题和挫折不完全是坏的。。。因为在这时刻才可以知道谁一直在我身旁帮助我陪伴我。。。。。除了爸妈。。还有她。。我的一位好友。。。好多心事我只告诉她。。。很多事情我都会和她说。。。可以说她是最了解我的人。。。。真的很感恩和感谢上天。。。。在我黑暗的时候。。带我家人和好友点亮我黑暗的天空。。。。给我力量走下去。。。。