谢谢~妈妈

刚收到，
妈妈寄来爱心+加油parcel.....
当我打开时，
看到妈给我的一些干粮，
和有我要的人参。。
前几天，
我总跟妈说，
‘我没时间出去买东西，房间的干粮快给我吃完。。’
妈就问我要什么，
她寄过来给我，
我只说
我需要一些人参来提神。
当我受到妈给我的东西，
我感到妈的爱。。。
感到她的关怀。。。
感到一股加油的力量。。
也感动了我。。
其实，
爱
有时不必说出口，
有时只要一些小动作，
就可以传达爱的信息。。。
妈。。
谢谢你。。。
在我最需要时，给我力量！

往窗外望，
天快要下起雨，
它好似如我现在的心情，
乌黑的天空，
代表我忧伤的心情，
挂起风，下起雨，
如我的心在哭泣。
要是有一首歌，
可让我开心，
要是有任何东西，
可让我快乐，
那有多好。。。

在那黑夜的晚上，
你问我累不累，
因为我一直，
马不停地的奔跑，
使你很难跟随我的脚步。。
我却说。。
我已习惯了，
也不知何时，
我开始不懂得停，
放慢脚步，
我深知自已有多累，
有无数的伤痕，
有无数的伤口，
因为在奔跑的当儿，
我一直在跌倒，
受到N次的受伤，
然后，我又爬起来，
再奔跑。。。。
其实我不怕跌倒受伤，
我只怕自已没勇气爬起来，
所以，我很庆幸，
还能在每次的跌倒，
站起来，
再向前跑。
也许这样的过程才能让我成长吧！

渐渐的，
雨也停了，
太阳也随着高挂，
我的心情也变好了，
我依然相信，
雨后总会出现彩虹。。

commitment!!!!!!!!

a sudden thought of my previous job experiences.......make me feel i lack commitment in working....which i want to improve it ........last 2 job.....make me realise i totally no hav commitment in it.....first job, ....when interview...i told the manager i can work 6 months....coz it was long holiday after stpm......bt at the end.....i worked for only 3 months.....if nt because of term n condition that i need pay few hundred for the uniform then i sure resign in a month.....then the second one more worse..........ai can imagine i only work for 5 day!!!! that job cause me feel stress ...coz when free i will be very free....when busy...then i will busy until need overtime........even thought it was a great experiences which i learned a lot from there even 5 day...i run away before i sign the contact...if nt i will struck in that company at least 1 yr...........luckly the manager is so good and pay me for working 5 days....haha which i told i wil be work for free..................coz of lack commitment........ai......look like if this condition keep continue in my future....then how many job i would change???? it time for me to change and increased my commitment.......i had to shape my commitment...

random thought!!

study ....study .....my life now is full of study.....

sometime,this continous rushing ,

do make me unbreathable,

sometime it make emotional.

When u keep busying moving forward,

u seem forget and left a lot behind,

when u lose the precious things,

u start regret and feel appreaciate.

Sometimes, i wish i could escape,

to some place that i could be free,

but too sad i cant find some place like that,

when i keep blame the bad environment,

maybe i should look inside me,

the problem is in me,

not the environment.

Why i bother change environment?

instead nt to change me,

bt i have become so sturborn to change,

maybe time is good teacher,

to change me.

I keep thinking,

where am i , in 10year,

what i will doing?

maybe i suppose,

care about present,

live in every moment,

and enjoy it.

so enjoy the exam period....coz i know i gonna miss it when i didnt have chance to take exam in future....all the best..........

the world is unfair!!!!

why some people born in rich and stay luxury,
why some people born in poor and struggle?

why some people have status, money and everything,
why some people don have status, money and have nothing!

why some people so lucky,
why some people so unlucky?

all those why??????????appear in my mind???ya....world is never a place which is fair to all of us....no matter how many thing we shout unfair and feel how unfair a situation..........we always came to an extend that we cant do anything to change!!!!! actually......it good for me to know the rule of the world early....it because outside world are more violent and more unfair event waiting me to face..........unfair is just only one of world game rule.....since we live in this world.....and become one of the player....we have no choice but have to play smart....and become great player......


this unfair feeling came, when i watched the firm last 2 episode....which a corporate compete for a position in tune money company......it a great movie tat teach me a lot lesson.....one of bigger lesson is........the world is unfair........why ????????it because a gal ,jennifer who perform consistent well at all the task and shine thoughout all the way to final 4 .....bt she lose focus on last task n did one time badly on tat task.......ya......and i don even feel she did badly in tat task....she seem brilliant and great leader all the way...............bt wat shock me...is she terminate and lose in final 4......since begining, i predicted she will become at least final 2...and the firm winner....to my disappointment..........those who i think not suitable , not a good leader, emotional,play save become winner.......argghh...the result trouble me...........and i make me think a lot....i believe jennifer also feel shock to the result...and feel unacceptable....bt all the decision is on the ceo hand.....is his choice to choose who to work at his company...so wat can other do....no point shout unfair....coz he got everything to make u down........

we cant change the world, bt one thing we can do .......is change our perception, our thinking..........we only can change our inner world......i believe there still many unfair event i will face in this world........bt as long as we know the rule....we will become a great player..........before enter working life...........learning abt the world is crucial.....learn abt the rule......learn to be a great player is difer from scoring 4.0 in exam......it about survival...i think it important everyone hav pic of the world outside...before enter it......coz it save u from fall down and learn more painful lesson...

why not help?

it was night time when couple stroll in the well-known park in town.......it was a great night to walk and also enjoy the moonlight.........actually they are waiting for the child to finish work and send her back...........suddenly a bike come from the back............then in flash moment..........something emergency happen........the bike appear to be snatch thief.....where they snatch the handbag of that women.........hopeless at the particular moment.............the women was in shock while the man seem want to catch up the bike.......there are a lot motorist pass by and some ppl walking .........if one of motorist apppear helpful then the thief can be stop.........but no one help........the thief juz escape like that....izzit at the particular moment all the motorist cant see it was an emergency?????o the situation is too dark to make them see the clear picture..........o it was ambiguous situation where the bystander thought there are a movie shooting!! o the bystander said it none of my bussiness..it not my responsible ........i m not the police...........o there are ppl who know how to deal wit the thief...........o the just think this is another snatch case.........i cant do anything.............o the scare the thief have weapon that might hurt them.....o the media influence which tell ppl it nt worth to help-newspaper on last few publish a news about a kind helper that help police to stop the crimimal and get hurt coz being shoot by police...........o it simply that the world is too unsafe to being helpful......who know u might become victim coz of show help...........does that mean help someone will cause risk to urself.......prosocial behavior ..........o simple there are hard to find a real altruism which unselfish care for other welfcare........o there are reasons ppl dint help??????????????

满足！！

突然觉得时间过得很快。。。也觉得时间很短。。。不够用。。时间在我不知觉中。。。得流走。。。真的开始觉得自已老了。。。。时间也越来越少了。。。可是要做的事情越来越多。。。。一直满足不了自已的欲望。。。当达了一个。。另一个会出现。。。所以我有一堆没完没了的事情。。。可能我很贪心吧？？？要的东西很多。。。。想要的东西更多。。。。有无限的要求。。。。不懂为什么我不会满足。。。还记得爸妈总会说。。。你真的不知足的小孩。。。一直要这要那。。。。。我总会回答。。。。现在的我。。。不可以那样容易满足。。。因为这是我为我的人生拼命的时候。。。虽然现在的我。。。。还没有任何成就。。。但我要努力。。。不然我以后会后悔。。。。。哈哈。。。可能这种难满足自我要求。。。使我。。难的到快乐吧？？？

why???

the whole nite i din sleep well.....coz thinking the reason why?????
time has pass so long bt i seem dint help to cure the scar..........
time has pass so long to make everything turn less intense...........
i thought there are turning point....
at first, it seem all going well,
and it seem getting better.....
but why it turn out to be reverse?????
i keep thinking......what wrong?????
i cant find the answer....
ai .....i thought time is good medicine to cure.....
but it still ...........nt proven....
what should i do??? i doesnt know???

RELATIONSHIP

it is an interesting topic to talk....it relate to our life..Relationship can be with family, friends, spouse, colleague, +++ it mean an interdependent - which 2 person influence each other lives.......to maintain a relationship...it require skills+effort+commitment...it can be the tougher job to be able maintain a good relationship ...it seem follow roller coaster....up n down......sometimes relationship make us feel suffer.....bt something it bring us happiness....i cant imagine what life would be if without relationship???? no one is an island.it show us ..we can live alone in this world.....what if we cant have relationship wit other o fail in relationship test??? -it may end up loneliness......but i did feel loneliness sometimes in my life...i wonder whether i fail in form n maintain relationship....mb due to ...the reason i dun hav siblings...which my early experience without peer interpersonal learning....undenied...my childhood has lack something....even i hav my cousin and neighbour to play with me....it differ when u hav sibling which u hav to face them everyday...i did wish i has a older sister....which can guide me,protect me, and become my best friend...i do admire those who has sister....sister is the one who she had walk the path and open the way for u...which mean can hav a mentor ...who give n teach u experience of life...so great if i has a sis...it really sweet...which i can share my feeling..my life...my story with her....bt i dun have this luck yet....family is the early place where relationship form.....it where we first expose n form relationship wit parents......n it where the attachment came....it show degree of security experience in interpersonal relationship....it lead me to maslow need which security is one of our second stage of need.........imagine how strong the structure wit the weak foundation...therefore..we can see how important this early attachment to our later life...in social psychology attachment influence by self esteem(how we self evaluation) and interpersonal trust(belief other people)....both influence the attachment style one has.....for those we always form lasting and good relationship with other...undoubtly...they hav secure attachment with high self-esteem and high interpersonal trust....on the other hand....i hav a friend who low in self esteem and low interpersonal trust....she avoid close relationship...she unable form happy relationship with other......so sad she has the fear-avoidant attachment....while i think myself is with preoccupied attachment which i desire to form relationship but i scare i wil be rejected in relationship......it truth that i hav low self-esteem bt lucky i had high interpersonal trust..i trust everyone in the world is angel n i hate to see the devil side of ppl sometimes.......i believe trust is the basic requirement for forming relationship.....if u dun trust a person u wont even bother the person.......besides relationship wit family...the other important relationship is friendship....it belief it easy to form it but hard to keep it well.....i had one friends which i noe for nearly 11 year..i know her since primary 4...during that time i thought i hav found a best friend...bt..the friendship fade with time...nw we seem only facebook friend...only chat one a yr....n haven meet again in 3 yr....then..i again meet a best friend at my secondary school...we have know for 8 yr....now we still best friend...i glad i had one....we spend time together (now become less coz distant barrier) ....i usually speak us and we ....we plan so this n that.......i will talk to her when i down as well as i m happy...she always lean me her ears n her shoulder when i sad....when i in front of her.......i act moderate....i totally myself........i tel her anything of my life.....bt since i busy wit all those assignment, activities , exam....it has reduce time we chat n talk...........n we cant hang out as usual....i wish this obstacle wont make our friendship go downpour.......
relationship is very common to our life...it our everyday life...that mean we will form relationship , manage, and maintain relationship from time to time.....do u ever think relationship wit other is like some kind of god creation.....it a gift for us....god wont make us walk alone in the life path...so do appreaciate every relationship we have..............

do do do , rush rush rush!!!

do assignment .......rush the dateline.....life is about chasing time.......running nonstop marathon....there are no time to take deep breath....time has pass to fast to stop and enjoy.....every moment is precious when lacking of it........everyday has been a day with a lot of agenda and full of work to do.....life is not only running but it need speed......to fight with the time.....to deal with the bunch assignment......there is no time to waste.........what left is the time for sleep...........came to the worst is the sleep time has to reduce........to stay awake and alert.....and work like a bull..........