Back Home!!!

i look like a bird that fly away for certain period and today it time for me to fly back home. Everytime on the way travel back home or back campus, my emotion came. Each time back home, it symbolise holiday for me, after long period of rushing in busy life, back home actually provide me a space to relax my body and free from worry a while. Home is like a place for me to take rest before travel further. home also a place for me to finding my real self and also thinking for life. eventhough this process is continue but home is better place for soul searching and also evaluate my recent life...While back campus will symbolise a new begining of travel and also a frest starting to another part of life. I always like the feeling of new begining. This make me remember years back when every new started school season, i would wait eagerly and make all the preparation to back to school. I like to have something new like a new bag, pencil cases or etc as a new symbolise! But the begining of new semester for me is differ from schooling, which i not going to buy new stuff as symbolise but a new thinking a new motivation , a new goal. It very important because our thought determine how far we go. Everytime i wave goodbye to kuching, i will tell myself to do my best for this time and go further. both home and campus are my favourite place, i dun always think wanna back home as well as back campus. For me, everywhere is my life. No matter where u at, u still need to live, need to eat and drink, need to breath...etc...and i do always make myself live in present....live in the moment u at and enjoy it. For the moment right now, i m enjoying a cup of my favourite coffee and muffin at coffee bean while on9. Life was good, and i m waiting to flight back. Here i back, kch!

miss My FORM 6 life

Time flight , 2 year has pass....my form 6 life had pass almost 2 year...and it was the most memorable and wonderful period of my life..i miss my f6 life and i love f6....i wish time can turn back and stop at that moment....even though a lot ppl said f6 is very hard....however i really enjoy every moment at f6....i had to thank all my f6 friends...without them , the path of f6 wont be that fun and interesting.....i miss all of them very much....It make me remembered the tough moment i gone through together, we all discuss the question together, gossip together, went toilet together...n i miss the most is recess time....we will go canteen n buy a lot of foods ...which make me more fatter at f6....then we will share the foods and chat non stop..even the recess time has passed n teachers at class, we still act like we didnt see the teacher and enjoy eating...hahah...i had to thank our great teachers without them....i cant survive f6 killing question and exam...esp to muet teacher patricia...she is very good english teacher...she teach us a lot new things and she like our friend...she like to chat with us and share a lot of story and her experience with us... our chemistry teacher,tan tsen tsen...we like to call her full name....she is a very good chemistry..she can teach well and make the class more alive and we like to ask her abundance question and she always have the passion to answer our curiousity....n our PA teacher...i forget her name..but she is very humor teacher n we like to bully her....haha.....and when she saw the class become uncontrol then she will act very serious...ahh,forget to intro the crazy gang at class....actually our class divide a few gang .....my gang hahaha- su hui, the whole class would be silent without her...but once she at class..sure the class will be more merry....i having a lot fun moment with her...we did a lot thing together....make a lot crazy things....without su my f6 life must be dull and boring...i believe the class will less fun without her loud and noisy voice hehe.....jacqueline, julie, chin fang - all of them are having fun of bully me....pity me.....i have a lot of 'nickname' given by them...and a lot of rumour of me wit xxx...and our tutor chung bun , syie liung , lynn....the three genius....whatever difficult question i dunno to solve sure i will go search and ask them to solve for me....thank ooooo....before the story continue i forget to talk about the 'merdeka week' we have during nation day...we all been grounded at maktab penguruan for a week to practice choir and prepare performance for 49 th nation day at sarawak ....it such a wonderful experience i have ....about 30 ppl staying n sleep at a room...wake up at 3 am and start practice at 6am....at the padang merdeka...i still remembered one day while we practice...sudden rainy have make every of us become wet and lucky non of us get sick.....My f6 life not only limited in academic...i did join few club like counseling club-actually i take form 6 becoz i doesnt know what i want to further study..so i plan to figure out in 2 yr of f6...if i didnt join counseling class ,i wont know psychology and thus i still cant find the courses i like... f6 actually lead me finding my dream make me more clearer what courses i like .....i wonder what is my life without taking f6 ...it much be a big mistake or unfortune to miss ....i never regret take f6 even many of my friends think i wasting time ...join counselling club make me expose me more education issue, university and courses info which help me a lot in choosing which courses to study in future....thank to our counseling teacher ,miss lily....she give us a lot advice and treat us like friend....the most memorable counseling activity is gunung gading camp...which all of us having trip there.....we did trekking there....we have self cooked and BBQ party....and the most remembered is night i spend look up the sky and counting stars with one of my friend, we talk about dream...our future....it such a special night i have....the other club i join is VAD ( Voluntary aid detactment) the other type of bulan sabit merah....i join one of the camp call VAD FUN CAMP during the holiday...from the theme sure everyone know it is fun...haha...we have beach theme fashion show....and i saw a lot participates done a lot to look like at beach.....and chin fang surprise everyone when she wear like men and look so coolllll.....bt i din hav the pic to show .....she really cool and we all totally cant recognize tat cool guy actually are a Gal....she really success in hiding and cheat all the gal tat attract by her.....the ERT Club - cooking club....every friday we will go to school special kitchen.....we bake cake , make sushi , sandwiches.....and try a lot of differ recipe ....hahaha.....the first time i bake cake......everytime after finish the day cook...we will wait eagerly for the result of our cook.....n of course, hunger for the cook.....ERT also have a trip to mineral water factory....at there i learn that differ color cover of bottle have differ meaning,the blue colour will mean mineral water...while the white is drinking water......and it amaze me to see the process the small little rice shape....plastic turn to the 500ml size bottle......besides that.....my f6 is all about partying.....we got birthday party.......farewell party to our friends who go take teacher courses....and final farewell party we have..........finally......the story of my f6 is coming to end....actually i still got a lot story still haven .......write.......but all the memory of f6 i will keep it in my mind and share whenever got chance......that alll....about my f6.....bye f6....i miss f6 .....n my friends....all of us take differ path to reach our own dream.....and also enter differ uni....only su hui and chin fang are same uni as me....so great still have them with me...even we take differ course....but there always got a connection that can link us together -that is our f6 memory.......all the best to all my f6 friends...wish everyone have the sweet moment at university and still remember the happy memory we have.........

the HER that i admire

it been such a long time i din go read her blog...bt today...i wonder what make me go read her blog...it so long i did see her......she is very special person for me...after reading her blog i found out she doing well at her university...so great to know that.however i always know she can do well and perfectly in her life...it such lose nt going same university with her .....when i saw her...she always give me the momentum to go forward...she MOTIVATE me to be more better...hahah...however i did have my purpose and my own way of life... she will always the person i ADMIRE most!!

bye NATCON 2009!

The Big Family Pic....all the LC , OC AND also MC of Aiesec Natcon 2009

GreAt OC OC OC Team

Our role call: EVERYWHERE we go, People want to know, Natcon big, OC great, Mighty mighty OC team!!!
Natcon had ended few day,actually i wan to write about it but due to the tired and also busy with assignment make me haven have chance to write.....i really miss Natcon...Even though the process was tiring but actually i enjoy every moment of it....ya, really! i have a lot of fun in it. both pre natcon to natcon to gala dinner....the whole process was a good experiences for me......i learn how to apply the venue , how to plan and organise an events, how to find sponsor, how to cope with crisis, and etc..... i can see every of my oc teamate work hard toward making natcon a great sucess.....and thank to all my oc president -pang yei jun,....who is a great leader....to min hui who done a lot for natcon...to en wan n lay mei ...i enjoy working with u guy and tat what i miss the most....to helen ..without u natcon wont run smoothly...to eddie...u really done a great job in transport and other job ..to kelvin..nice to work wit u.....NATCON had end , but i enjoyed the process and i will keep all the sweet memory in my mind!!

选择???我做对了吗?

空虚的心灵,不却实的感觉,

我又走进黑暗中,又次迷失了自已!

我又再次的自问,我做对得选择吗?

在黑暗中,仿佛听见了后悔的语气!

其实我不该再问这个问题,既然无做了选择,

就不该往后看!

当我做这个选择时,

我很清楚的知道,

未来的路多的山坡,多么多的障碍,

做这个选择有如把自己放进热锅里,

自讨苦吃!

但,值的安慰的事是,

我主宰了我的人生,

我没把我的人生交给命运,

虽然命运告诉我这条路不能走,

但为了我所爱,为了做喜欢的东西,

我选择了它,也愿意付出代价,

以泪水,以汗水,

一步一步的向前走,

虽然到现在,

我所吃的苦,

只是一小部份,

但一点都不好受!

但生活有苦难,也有残缺,

但生活同样有幸福,也有美丽!

既然做了选择,就要勇敢走下去,

不管有多难,不管有多累,不管有多苦,

都要坚强走下来,做个打不死的小强,

我相信当我走完这条路,

我再不是以前的我,

我将会成为另一个我,

一个成长的我,成熟的我!

加油吧!

tough life!

Since i came ukm , my life getting tougher....before i came...i never use public transport coz kuching is small city, everywhere is connected and can be reach within few minutes...and i can go where ever i like..bt at here everything is differ, i need to wait until my neck turn long for the bus to come....which i face it today...i had waited the bus for an hour to go somewhere and when i back the same problem again...i wait another hour + ...ahrg i almost fired of waiting!!!! besides that, wherever i go i have to go through extremly long haul journey....usually take more than an hour to reach a place...so terrible when thinking the long hour travelling....it nt only break my dream to tour the whole kl when i realise that many hot places and shopping complex cant be reach with public transport...no tv for me to watch when i boring,and i have to queue up or wait to watch a tv programmes.bt at home,the whole tv is mine....i can watch whatever programme i like....besides that,i dun need to wait for take bath..at home i can take bath anytime..when the weather is so hot at room n i sweat a lot...with no other choice..i have to bear the hot day...but at home, i can switch on the air cond and drink glass cold beverages...emm how wonderful!!!.besides that , i learn to shop alone at here...while at kch, wherever i go i will with my best fren...we like to go new and special places to eat,and also go our usual hang out cafe and eat our favourite meal....we go play badminton once a week...chat at the badminton court after finish playing.....talk about life while eating.....at here, everything i had to pay attention on.. which my daily life is totally manage by myself...and it nt like at home, which every morning breakfast is prepare by my parents...and i dun have to worry how tall the mountain of clothes i have wear coz my mom incharge of laudry...i dun have to worry what or where to eat every meal....how happiness i m at home....if i never leave the comfort zone i never know how is life out there where u need to depend on urself and no one is helping u....i once read a book that tel me life is good teacher which it push us and let us grow...it true...the more tougher my life getting the more i learn the more i grow....undoubtly this yr is the most faster pace i took and more further i go...suddenly i miss kuching, miss my home, however i never regret to go far from home...no matter how tough the life...i will go through it...everything in my life need determination and persistent to face all the challenges...whatever challenges i will take it ....jia you !

Forgive Brings Freedom !

Today i read a book,then came across to this FORGIVE BRINGS FREEDOM!
and i totally agree with it.I know to do the forgiveness to someone who hurt u are nt easily task,bt forgive can make u feel relieve ,make u feel free....make u feel good....why u want prefer to bring all the hurt someone gave u until the last breath rather choose to forgive which will bring u freedom??? THE PRICE OF FORGIVENESS IS ALWAYS LESS THAN THE PRICE OF UNFORGIVENESS. despite the price that forgiveness requires,the price of unforgiveness is greater....however whether want to forgive o nt it still up to ur choice..i always choose forgive..coz i have an i-will-forgive-u-regardless-of-what-you-do-to-me mentality,cause i dun wan bear the suffer of unforgive people.besides i believe the person u forgive will feel better cause have ur forgiveness..believe me,forgiveness is an amazing things....let us practice forgive ...and also let go all the hurt u have....let toward 100% forgiveness mentality...Forgive bring freedom.