Too many thing have happen to me recently, all was burden me and it bring tears to me as well. I had enter uni almost a year , and everything seem getting harder and tough .......and i wonder will i able to go though???
So many thing to do......it getting busier until i hav no time to relax n even to call my parents....n they seem grumble me recently.....bt i really no have time ....ai hope their understand that uni life is not like what they think....i like to be busier than free...coz when i m free i start to feel uneasy and uncomfortable...mb i m a workaholic gua. o tooo active ...in uni life i think we should enjoy the busy period and oso appreaciate when u gt free time...haha,if i said i busier bt still gt time to write blog....bt i do allocate time for blog so i will rmb bc in future....
My life will be much more busier ......i can feel the fast pace of my steps and everything happen so fast.......which all come in one........i din hav much time to manage my feeling n clear all the emotion i have recently.but life must go through ...when i read bc what i had post....i found out i write so much unluckly happening in my life......such a negative thinking i m. .....I once read a book that tel me write as many good and sweet memory in blog nt ugly one....haha look like i hav to be more positive even i hav bad times recentlyyyyy.....jia you o!
god Help me !!!!! Im so innocent here ....whY i suddenly become middle person between the war....i dunno what should i do? Why things get worse ? i really din wan her to hurt o hurt her. Coz i noe the feeling of hurt .....i m hurt oso . The pain she feel is also on me ..... and many others who hurt her......i m struggle to protect our broken frenship frm being nothing........i really treat her as my frens,bt mb she din treat me as fren and juz wan to be......if u read this ...i wan u to noe i m nt somebody..i m me.dun treat me like i m her ..........plz give our friendship a chance ok ,dun break it...i really wan u to recover......
Today suppose to be worst day in my life.....I really feel hurt.....mb for those who had been hurt know this kind of feeling ...it all happen so suddenly that i din even notice it ....she just send a msg to me and tell me i feel i can't trust you , u have lose my trust ....after read the msg...i blur...what really happen? i din know i do anything ....ok, actually things have getting worst since last month ,i dunno y my frenship wit her become so weak ,ok now she seem dun wan 2 retain the friendship.i hav no much to say.my heart is bleeding ,u know what the person u trust hurt u more.she noe the kind of feeling bt she is the one who do this to me....i dunno how to face her ......i need to be with her everyday ...how can i go throught the day of facing wall......i m very sad now.....even i din say out and din express out ...it doesnt mean i din get hurt.....no one can noe wat i feelllll.....
Recently i reallly feel stress.The burden i carry is getting more and even over the limit that i can handle.I dunno how long i can stand anymore.Everything seem to come together............so much until i unable to control.I feel unable to breath ,no much time i can waste.Time for me now is Assignment,study,exam....tat all.....even feel wanna cry ......the sadness i keep nt longer can hold in my heart...
If i never leave my home ,i will never know how much i love my home.If i never being away from my parents i never know how much i love them. One precious lesson i learned at here is always appreciate what you got.Human are so strange,coz they only know appreaciate something which has lost or they did get it.I had suffer few temporary homesick period,and everytime it come it make me like feel wan to go back...since i been here for about a year this homesick didn`t get rid and instead it get strong when i bc here from my home...However i gonna back soooooon,really hope i will get rid this homesick and enjoy hereeeeeeee.
