The week 4 intern journey

it pass fast yet memorable,

the challenges getting tough and more as time pass,

week 4 never be the week to relax,

one again,

it was whole new experiences,

this week what new is our office have new 7 intern on board,

suddenly our office become crowdly,

it was first time i need to compete to call with 7 line available,

not only phone line,

water as well become limited source,

not need to say for pc,

before that,

few consultants have to share,

now more people with one pc!!!

the interns come at wed,

3 has been allocated same level as mine,

while other 4 is at lower level,

then i been told to attend training,

that where the disaster begin,

when i start to step on the bom,

it happen when my manager brief us what is our daily target,

60 calls per day to invite candidates came to interview,

20 interview to conduct,

50 calls to update candidate profiles,

50 data to key in,

12 resume out

that not include job matching, answer calls, attend walk-in candidates, photocopy, administrative works....etc...

all this tasks take more than 13 hr to finish,

but we only work 9 hr,

wow,

when i read the target,

i feel a sense of cant be accomplish,

then i so kepo that i suggest to my manager,

told her the calculation,

at the end,

she require me to do proposal....

this proposal make me tense for few day,

i headache doing it,

i seem simple yet to make it not offend,

it damn hard!

i straight have discussion with other intern and gathering their thought,

to make calculation less ideal yet realistic,

i do simple test and record the time,

from source,

i know my manager wont change target no matter what,

so i know i useless to suggest her to reduce target,

i turn it to other way,

and make it became a target review which show her analysis of time to complete those tasks.

finally i submit on friday,

after i submit i really blame myself for being kepo,

doing what i should nt do,

however, if time turn back,

i still do the same,

from that i learn a valuable reason,

dont find trouble and dig a hole to step in.

after all the interns in,

i found out previously i been treat unfair,

i suppose to have more training before on job,

but they let me went explore without guide,

it let me walk the path i should not,

let me fall and got scolded,

then,

due to many interns,

they have much more advantage than when i was the only intern,

when my colleagues said,

please slow down, our new intern cant follow,

what the hell,

when i was new,

no one even stop down for me,

not only that,

they approach me to ask me what to do,

last time i had no one to approach when doubt,

when ask,

i had to take risk being scold,

it seem like new interns been guide and help,

our company seem spoon feed them,

while me,

they let me go by my own,

the more i saw,

the more i felt unfair...

now i even have to teach them,

that not the task of their supervisor?

i wonder,

we are same,

as an intern,

but differ treat,

what more irritate is,

i felt i m stupid,

they work on time,

leave on time,

while me n one of intern, always ot!

this few day,

i really felt imbalance,

i asked many why?

all those of why which dont have answer!

i understand unfair always happen,

i more realize and experience how cruel the world out here,

to make me feel better,

i always told myself,

thank to those people who make you life suffer,

they let us grow!

maybe i should thank them,

for being such difficult person to deal,

they make me realise a lot,

they make me have a great hard moment!

that i wont never forget how much lesson they have taught me!

sometime i dont understand myself,

why i always dig a hole and make my life difficult,

i have easier and better choice,

i dun have to go though all this suffer,

it make me flash back,

when i went all the trouble to study psychology,

it just like today,

i can choose work at government or go back my hometown to work,

but i choose work at the hectic and materialistic city,

decide to take challenges and bear the target they require!

but sometime,

bad moment doesnt mean everything bad,

i always said,

they are angel appeared when dark,

when i feel bad,

luckly i had good social support,

after i talked to some people

i feel better and more comfort,

after all i vent all my negative thought and unhappy,

this week one of happy things is i attended career fair at ucsi,

it was great experiences,

it was the most relax day since the day i worked,

i manage to know new friends,

and talk to some new faces,

coincident,

i met previous intern at my company,

we chat a while,

and i know a lot things from her,

as i said,

there always a window open follow by close door,

i feel gratitude for that!

after all the negative,

i should adjust my thought,

there no way for me to change workplace,

nor the people they,

i cant change the way they treat me,

just change my percepts much more possible n easier,

after all,

they are my life sifu,

teach me all the hardship and difficulty,

be positive,

is one of the way to support me walk thought the another month,

i had gone thought one month,

just only one more month,

let make it the better one...

remember,

i can choose,

i can choose to be positive

and

i can choose to be happy,

no one can control that,

only ME!

ganbatte.....

let make next week another leap!