It has been a while since i graduated....

After calculating the months,
It has been 1 year 5 months since i officially graduated from University,
Time just flight, and it been a while i did not write in my blog,
2013, this is my first post....
There are something that trigger me to write this post,
I have the strong feeling wanted to write down my thought after read an article.

Since graduated,
Everyone walked they own path,
Gradually i disconnected to many of my friends out there,
Sometime it was such a wake that i saw my friends news somewhere out there,
Either in the newspaper, video, up the stage of the public seminar i attended or Facebook's wall that tell me how success they was....
Many of my friends out there which i consider them as one (if they are in my list of friend in Facebook) did very well out there.
Sometimes, they achievement inspired me,
Proud to say, many are from my University,
It really proud to know that many of UKMer success in the field that they persued
Some are the juniors that i knew and they really outshine it the market,
That make me feel : " Not bad, my University have a lot of talent inside".

Some of my friends have actually won awards, scholarship, or started they own business....
One common among them are " They go after they dream and do what they want!"
I always believe this : You will be very success if you do what you want...
The questions is Are you doing what you love and want?
If you are, you have 50% of success rate and plus 50% is another factors (eg: determination, skills....)
If you asked me: Did i doing what i want or love?
The answer is ...........
You can find out from me whether i am or not,
Cause the person who doing something they like, it so different ....you can sense that....

Congratulation for those who achieve something and doing what you like,
Thanks for make us (UKMer proud) or your friend proud of you.
Wish someday i can be the one that make my friends proud of me.

 

A problem is not a problem when you see opportunities in it!

Today,

This lesson taught me the long forgotten theory of life,

How many people in this world,

Success because they see problem so difference,

For them, Problem is just another way to make things better,

Problem is another platform to improve,

Problem is where it tell you this dont work!

In this world,

How many people have success,

When their seize opportunities in every problem.

How many business are build to solve problem,

Like those consulting company, counseling centre....

Everyone of us solve problem every moment,

Some people see it as a problem,

They choose to grumble about it,

Start complaint and blame people for it,

or another choice,

Is see opportunities in it,

And solve it.

Which one are you?

I cant see

I cant see my future,

Which i thought i saw it last time!

Another words,

I am lost.

Many times i keep thinking,

Whether my dream still burning?

Or i still remember where i want to go?

Lost is a scary,

With a lot of fear...

It just like you step into the jungle,

Alone and it on dark night!

With unclear path lay upon you,

You have choice,

To choose which path you want to take,

But you are unclear where is your destination,

When your future is still dark,

Step by step you run,

Hope to reach the end, 

But where is my end,

It seem no end!

Where each stop is another begin,

I keep running and running,

Yet still in the same path with no ending....

Maybe i am comfort with the path i took,

Where i am so bless with what i have,

That make me even lost!

So, I am blind,

For this moment,

I am busy running to the end,

But cant see the direction and destination!

Change

Change, 

it always remind me the most constant things in the world is CHANGE!

it undeniable,

i always know the facts people change, world change and definitely everything change.

When look back to past,

i always realize how much changes i have made!

the me today is never be the me yesterday.

Change is a must,

No one can remain unchanged.

no matter what things always change even u remain the same. 

Sometime, 

i feel change is very traumatic,

it move u from one end to the other end of your emotion scales,

just a few secs,

you can feel the impacts,

some people change faster than the speed of light....

it make me feel that why this people at that moment is like this,

next moment is like that!

One haunted change i felt is how much people surround u change,

in just a short of time,

many things become different,

Please dont be naive that things will remain the same,

and people will be always like this!

No!

I learned from this nature law of world,

is keep changing....

i think i still too passive in changing,

which i am seeking more visible and dramatic change in me,

i know i need changes in many ways,

it so importance to change yourself,

but i means here is the good change,

However sometime u not able to tell the change is good or bad,

because u not able to tell,

i always hold this belief,

good or bad of anything is not an absolute,

when u thought it was a good things,

but next moment u found out actually it not a good things.

In this world today,

i really think we need change to survive,

many things changes,

the government, economic, financial, all you could name it...

but none of the changes faster than a person change.

I experienced a person who is this,

and it shocked me when i see the process this person change,

sometime this type of change leave us trauma,

and it make us feel upset and frustration,

with the question,

why he/she become like this?

let not look external, 

sometimes even ourselves dont aware we change,

until someone told us.

Reality is 

many changes is not beyond your control,

and a small change lead to another change,

the impact is keep rolling,

Once i face that this and that is not what i can control, 

because it beyond my control,

instead of let it keep control me,

i make an effort to change,

every little change make impact on me,

what the biggest challenges is perspective change.

many things change when u change your views and belief,

you will find out how the world is difference.

I know change is a part of my life,

i know it not only me,

it also mean my environments, people, ...

i always give change a chance,

and go for positive change.

just a moment ago,

i watched the video that my friend who have make a change,

i proud of her,

and i m glad i support her to make the change,

and given any chance,

i willing to change the world for better place,

Let us together make changes,

Changes toward positive.

Changes toward better us.

Changes toward a better future!

不同的人生

我要的是不一样的人生，
不是那平凡又无味的生活。。。

突然很有感触，
很想过非一般的生活，
过这那有使命感的人生。。
不是为自已而活，
而是为社会奉献。。。

我想乘着我还年轻，
还能做些别人认为疯狂的事情，
那怕我会一无所有，
但我却过这有意义的人生。。。

我能做到吗？
我有勇气去走吗？
我能不能放下我的责任，
现在的答案。。。
还是不能！
但并不表示，
我以后不能！

Quick update on my life

It have been 7 months since i stepped out the university door,
This 7 months, I have gone throught differ life,
One things i am glad is I like my life now,
Even though many happening that really smack me and give slaps,
That wake me up and bring me to reality.
Frankly, i feel i am blessed person,
Till today life was smooth to me,
I always tell myself i am very fortune person,
As i always have many great people come into my life,
Each of them make my life difference.
There are people willing to guide me and taught this ignorance kid,
and there are person who appeared in the NEED momment with a pair of hand!

But life is changing,
as today is never be the same as yesterday,
when faces changes,
sometime i still on the unacceptacle stages,
wonder around with my emotions,
Many happenings recently,
Which gave me a stunt and slap,
People who wake me up,
I have to thank them,
i always have a believe Thank those people who make my life suck!
Yes, they make me hurt,
But at the same time they grow me,
without them, i still in ignorance stage.
They told me what i still inadequate,
They let me know how much efforts i need to put...
They words as sharp as the knife, as clear as water...
It hurt definitely,
But rather be hurt,
It drives me to be better me,
As life always taught me,
I need to improve!

As time pass,
I understand why i am like this,
I like a challenge life,
which it make my heart pump faster and adrenaline rush,
that make sense when i like to ride roller coasters,
It seem able to make me feel my heart pumping,
and once again i feel i m alive...

In life when we open our heart and eyes,
we can realize a lot of things,
I m still learning and improving,
I know i am neither too young or too old,
I have many dream that i wishes i can achieve it,
but it take time,
Sometime i hope the world create a shortcut for me to achieve!
I always believe,
There are nothing greater to have a dream and persue it.
But recently one of my friend,
make me realize dream is important,
It is truth to focus on dream,
But at the same time,
Life still have many things u need to concern not only your dream,
what is the purpose when you achieve to the top,
Yet you are alone and you seem forget what the reason you want to be at top,
Because all the while what u focus is the destiny not the passion!

In life,
I have experience what it mean doing what you like,
One day,
My friend told me,
It very differ from what i can see you from other who have worked,
you seem to enjoy what you doing.
In fact,
I did.
Up till now,
I still look forward everyday of my day.
There are one day,
when i saw 2 waitress at restaurant,
what i can see the differ of them is,
one is so passion and enjoy her work
while another one work for survive.
Then it make me understand how important to doing what you like.
But here is the ponder:
If you need to make choice between what you like & materialistic, what choice you will choose?

In short,
this 7 months is the wonderful journey for me,
from the day i want to start my another chapter here,
where i have no base, no job, no plan, and only a thought!
till now,
everything was far from my imagination....
I appreaciate every moment of my life,
As i always believe,
Everything happens for reasons,
Maybe i cant see today,
but i will realize it some day in future.

放下它

它捆牢了我好久，
每次为了它我就情绪化，
一次有一次的被它主宰，
也埋怨好久，
一直为它抖抖转转。。。
今天我终于想通了，
也做了决定，
面对它，处理它，接受它，放下它，
我不想在这样下去，
其实，
只要换个观点，
它就变得不同！
我一直看到的是我没有的一却，但却忽略我拥有的一切。。。
决定放下它，
那感觉好好，
不在被困着，
从今天我会专注我要的，不是不要的！

Lessons from the World

I once read a book,

it said: The world outside is greatest teacher and you never ending learning from it!

It truth,

I learned a lot recently.

Since i step into the world,

there was so many lessons i could learn,

Mostly i learned when i fall,

it hurt most of the time,

when i have to face all those of realities!

Many time,

it gave me slaps,

to wake me up from my dreaming.

Since i was new to the world,

i started with burning passion and highly expectation toward the world,

Yet,

Many time i learned that world is not more what you can think off,

sometime i consider myself a naive child,

who still believe the world is better place,

i still hold that belief,

just hope i will cling on it longer.

Few time,

World gave me magnitude-4.0 earthquake

a mild shake that cause me numb for a while,

sometime the temperature drop to negative,

which make my heart freeze of coldness.

Despite all the unpleasant lessons,

I still have pleasant one,

which make my life contain some hope,

and make me see the light in the dark,

there still few kind people out there,

who willing to lend a hand,

to bring me blanket when cold,

to tell me what to do when earthquake,

who tell me they experience with the world.

a single act of kindness,

a single positive words,

it can make me feel i am not alone.

Many time,

World also taught me,

You are never alone in learning,

cause other learn with you too!

The world teach me a lot of emotions,

it taught me disappointment, frustration, happy, surprise....etc

Today,

I found out how many lessons the world have taught me,

Today,

I also found out how much i value the lessons i learned,

Today,

I found out how grateful i should have,

Today,

I found out WORLD IS GREATEST PLATFORM to learn,

I also found out WORLD IS MY GREATEST TEACHER,

When life gave me a nudge,

Remember it is teaching you something,

Be patient to learn the meanings,

And appreciate all the learning experience.

One day you will know why it is!

things happen for reasons

In life,

there are many events that happens to us,

some might good and bad,

but no matter good or bad,

i always hold a belief that : Things happen for reasons!

There many times i witness the theory behind it...

Something happen,

it maybe bad to you at that moment of time,

but when time past,

you notice it was a blessing.....

So dun judge a happening whether it good or bad,

cause you never know until the end...

Sometime when i thought this is bad things that ever happen to me,

but at the end i realize it a good things that ever happen!

It really exciting to learn the life's theory and lesson,

it always an enlightening and insightful moment

when you realise the theory behind everything...

How is your life?

How is your life?

I asked myself,

Maybe good maybe not,

why?

because sometime i feel life was good,

but most of the time i not feel so!

why?

There are always many why questions i asked to myself..

I live with roller coaster emotion changes,

Sometime up sometime down,

my life always change,

change that too fast before i adapt,

today is like this,

tomorrow is differ!

but honestly this is life...

I sense many change in me,

I not longer the person i thought i was last time...

maybe i still in self-exploration period,

there are many thought have changed...

good or bad change? i dunno,

cause things happen for it's reason, i believe that!

when look back on my life past few month,

i feel blessed, gratitude,

along my way to next stage of my life,

there are many people who assist & accompany all the way,

when i need help,

there are people kind to do me a favour....

i really feel thankful for it!

but at some point of life,

i know my life lack of something,

this things i still looking for it!

something that can be the reason for me to be here!

i belief everyone have they mission in life,

whatever it is,

it is the one who move and drive you,

i have mine,

yet i not sure it is what i want.

since we live once in this life,

i always ask,

how can i make this life worth to live.

maybe

do some contribution!!

yeah....

i was thinking,

the mission which make me alive,

not only because of my parents,

but,

to make positive change or impact to people,

no matter it big or small,

i willing to contribute,

i want to be contributor!

Is this i want?

Yes for current moment!

i need more time to prove this is what i want!

Ask yourself,

do u ever deeply think,

what reason you on earth?

There must be a reason!

We live this moment must have purpose!

Just we dont realize!

The 2011's JOURNEY

2011,
The TRANSITION year,
it was the year,
where i step out from the university door,
walked into the corporate door.
A year full of tear & sweat,
tear for the farewell,
sweat for the hardwork,
of course full of laugh & Smile moments!


The journey of first half year,
with the identity as a student.
With the tonne heavy of assignments & Thesis,
Happy moment i spent with my fellow uni friends, coursemates,
The most cherish moment in my university life,
when the farewell bring all the memory of the years
A series of photos remind me the journey i had walked
It make me miss the days a lot
The days i walked with psykids, the activities i did...my thesis....all was valuable than anything else.....

Our family photo~taken at the last class

our big family~with the order of sis & dad & mom

The CNY steamboat dinner

Practical Workshop~protocol group

My poster assignments~~a challenging one....However i enjoy the process

It was GRACE's Initiative that bring this ONE DAY WITHOUT SHOES a reality...
I really proud to be able help and be part to create the awareness....

Panggung Bodhi~it was totally enjoy experience for organizing it...it mark a better ending toward my university life which i was joined it on my last year (the so called busy year)

of course...i never forget the English for Business course i had attended at British Council...The happy 3 month English Learning Experience, with determination to go every Wednesday...all the way from Bangi to KL (1hr+ travel journey)..
what most memorable is i known this group of people,
who i learned English together....
where i met chazz & su sian
and we did some crazy things together.

This definitely the most relaxed and happier moment....where my a year hard work come to the end.....it gave me a lot of sweat and tears....

One day malacca trip with my fellow coursemates....we have great fun....took a lot of photos....and did a lot of crazy stuff.....haha....it good to be able have fun while we all at the midst of completing our thesis....

Another trip to Genting, with En wan & Ah lee...we have fun time there....playing together and shop together....it add colour in my last year of university life....

The next half year of my 2011,
is where the transition occur,
It began with the practical training,
haha,
it sure a great experience,
with some crazy act i did,
It was a tough beginning,
where the transition and adaptation all come in,
The experience really build my path today,
Where i met a gang of interns,
until Today we still keep in touch...

with all fellow interns....where we all cling together and sail in the same ship together....with differ backgrounds and university, we met each other.....and work together....
because of them...my practical trainee become interesting and fun...

they are my housemates during practical trainees....it happy to know them and stay together...with all the young...they make me feel younger....what miracle is i dunno this gang at all, though Michelle, i know Wei Chee....with all this so called yuan fen....
I was honor to be a part of their housemates

After Internship,
July was the month i spent play and went around,
for particular month,
i went to kluang, malacca, penang, kota kinabalu and lastly my hometown,
it was ONLY PLAY AND TRAVEL month
I enjoyed a lot,
Thank to my parents for allow me to go everywhere i want.

Went to visit UK farm where few of my fellow friends have internship there....it totally close nature experience.....thank to Kheng Por....for initiate the trip...we began at zen organic farm, UK farm and lastly stopped at Malacca.

For the first time i broke the records of having 9 cups of coffee in 2 days....amazing!


Penang trip with my family....we have fun together.....went to pulau Jelatek with some physical activities there and it was the few last gathering we have....at last night we all gather at the beach together we did sharing together....sort of beach talk...haha

One of psykids favourite activities...sing K...we managed to sing together in big group for the last time....we have a lot of fun sang together....
i definitely miss the time we sang k .....

before back to KL, i stopped by at taiping, EN wAN hometown with melia, i spent half day explore the town and en wan become the tour guide....

kota kinabalu trip....it was unplanned & random trip....Grace, En wan and I ....we booked our ticket during our study week, where 3 of us suddenly come into mind to travel together....definitely advantage experience at KK
Cause we rented a VIVA...and i drove at the city i first visited,
amazing trip...after all!

In front of Gunung Kundasang, the 3 traveler...we took few hour....enjoy all the journey, with human GPS (Grace) we went travel around KK....
surf for the interesting place....of course ...thank to sharon for bring us to taste the nice foods at KK

Next trip~~ Kuching my hometown...it prove i was not a good tour guide.....after all, i din know kuching well....Grace and En wan come for the visited...we went few place so called tourist spot at my hometown....and i managed to bring them around with the help of Eddie...

on august, after years ..i have another family trip to Singapore...The moment i wished...and it come truth....that the power of law of attraction.....

on 8 Aug, my birthday...it was the differ birthday i have this year...spent at country where i born....it like after 20+ year...i back here at the same date....i celebrate this year birthday at Universal studio...

Me with my cousin have fun at Universal studios......which in 3 month time...i have another universal studio trip with my colleagues

after the one month plus,
play and travel,
it signed the began of job hunting....
After the process of searching, interviews....
I got the job offer from insurance company,
a industry i never though of,
Yet, i step into it.
Here i am....started the work life
in sept 19....
i remembered i settled down...
find room and prepare onboarding,
as always beginning is tough

After one week of onboard,
that another great events on my life,
the proud moments of me,
my graduation....
when think back 3 year ago,
when i still thinking whether i can make it today...
The answer i got, YES!
i did it.

with convocation....it symbol the end of my university life....another life is waiting me to explore

Came to today,
it have been 3 month 11 days,
since i worked....
this 3 month,
i can conclude i joined at the right time,
with all the celebrations, events, trips....
i felt i was lucky.

Conclusion,
This year was a great year...
far greater than i could amazing,
i believe 2012 will be better,
cause i will make it be the greatest one!
Bye 2011, Welcome 2012.

情绪化

不懂何时我快变成草莓族，
那么的脆弱，
那么承受不了挫折，
一碰就脆！

一直以来我都把挫折当训练，
把挑战当好友，
但最近的我，
好像变得很疲倦，
身心都很累，
累到我睡12小时，
还是起不来。。。。

我又再次走入低潮，
当那一却无奈，
那一却不辛，
那一片片黑云，
下不完的大雨，
这时，
脆弱的我，
真的承不下去。。。。

我最讨厌就是，
那些不好总是一次过的找你，
一点也没给你时间疗伤！
一次有一次的刺激你，
但，
这就是人生。。。
无时无刻都在挑战你，
尝试你的程度，
看你有多少的忍耐。。。

用另一方面想，
或许，
挫折并完全是坏的，
它让我领悟很多，
它教我很多，
面对它，
我才知道我的能力，
它还能让我知道，
谁才是真心对你的。。。

或许，
现在的我在山中，
在往难处爬，
在这时刻，
我已用了全神力量，
的往前爬。。。
它用尽了我所有的精力，
但只要我要着牙根，
过了这一关，
我又向前多一步。。。。

写完了。。。
感觉较好了。。。
情绪，
就像下雨一样，
一下子就天晴了！

The journey of JOB HUNTING

it was another life journey,

start once i out from student identity,

the process was AWESOME,

why?

it was the unforgettable experience,

the one month hunting period,

the whole process was like sitting on roller coaster,

sometime up sometime down,

it begin with queue up for game,

sent application and hunt for right job,

then waiting for the roller coaster to move,

sometime it move to higher point when move to new stage,

sometime it drop to lower point when no news,

i m great that i was quite lucky for the whole process,

where it provide me choice to choose which i want,

it struggle and hard to make the right decision,

along the way,

there was few opportunity which i lucky to came across,

but i was target the right one,

i would like to start it right,

rather be sorry that i start wrong for first time,

so i think i rather to choosy and picky,

i admit i was this type of graduate...

after the long journey,

finally i reach the end of the journey,

after the long process of apply, wait, interviews ...

the process was long,

i been using 1 month waiting for application process,

mb because i was not available for interview since i at kch,

however,

i was glad to experience a number of interview,

i am happy that i pass each stage,

the happiness when u reach to the last stage of it,

i even receive opportunity where i not even interview but was great offer,

some i only go for phone interview then was quite good offer as well,

my job hunting experience was GREAT,

it was differ kind of experience,

i gratitude i go through it,

it really test my patient and my skills,

where it was a very begin stage to knock the door of the market,

now it time to step in,

hope i do great!

7月+ 8 月 《之旅》

这两个月，

我的旅程是超出我预料，

是一个《NO PLANNING》的开始，

很多人问我，

实习后有什们打算呢？？？

我总会回答：

没打算就是我的打算！

两个月内

我竟然到处跑，到处玩，

去了好几个地方。。。

实习完了，

我第一个的旅程是和Psykid 的四天三夜槟城毕业旅，

整个旅程注重于集合大家，

毕竟未来的日子，

大家将往自已的路走，

见面也较少，集在一起也很难，

但无论我们在那，

我们都是psykid 一家人。

在一起的时光。。。·@penang 之旅

我们一起疯狂的照片。。。@@

毕业旅完之后，

我向太平半天游，

去尝试恩万店的美食，

然后逛逛太平中心。。。

我和melia拍下我们在太平的证据。。。

下一站，

我在9日-10日，

和波哥去找佩韵, chin fang 他们，

跑去kluang的uk farm,

又去organic farm...

过了接近大自然的一天，

过后我们去马六甲，

游了半天。。。

美丽的大自然。。。

yeah, 坐了四个钟车程，我终于来到UK FARM了！！！

来到kluang 最久的kopitiam。。。那两天我喝了九杯咖啡。。。破了我人生记录。。

在我还没离开kl,

我找那好久没见的实习朋友，

来个集会，

顺便三八一下。。。

还和我的housemate,

一起集合，来个farewell meet....

这两个月我很高兴认识他们，

他们让我的两个月变得很精彩。。。

跟我坐在同一艘船的实习朋友。。。

可爱的Housemate 们。。。

13日-18日，

我，恩万和grace,

我们三人游到kota kinabalu,

我们kk之旅可说是个无计划的旅行，

只租了酒店，

临时才计划隔天的旅程，

还租了一辆viva...

三人到处跑。。

在网上看到那里好玩就驾车去，

真的有点刺激又好玩。。。。

我们租了viva,而我做了几天的司机。。。我们竟然用viva上神山，还好上的去下的回。。

我们在kk的合照。。。美丽的风景。。。为我们kk之旅留念

19日-21日，

恩万和grace,

来到我家乡kuching,

我如游客般，

带她们到处参观，

可惜，

我这导游，

住了20多年，

却对kuching的地方一知半解，

找来了我们kuching朋友eddie,

帮我想那里好玩。。。

真失礼。

在kch的合照

玩了整个7月，

我终于回来家，

静了下来，

为我的未来打算，

寻找我的方向，

也开始找工的过程。。。

8 月，

5日-10日，

临时，

我们全家决定去新加坡，

就这样我在新加坡的universal studio 过我的生日，

今年，

我的生日很特别，

不是因为有任何的庆祝，

而是出生23年，

在我出生日。

重来我出生的地方，。。

感觉有点不同。。。

好像你离开一个地方好久，

在特别的日子重游次地那种感觉。。。

Universal studio 之旅

11日-18日

我跑到kl ,

近一步的寻找工作，

也找些朋友见见面，诉诉久。。

之后的八月，

我还继续寻工过程，

过这随心所欲的日子，

几点睡和几点起，

都没关系，

日子过了轻松，

但无趣！

整个找工过程真的很难忘，

但我知道要珍惜现在那无忧无虑的日子。。

享受它吧！

*说要记录我的旅程很久以前，讲了很久，今天终于我成功写完了，大功告成！*

Inspiration!

today....

some word have inspire me,

the long forgotten dream,

a hidden dream which i left behind after rain and thunder,

i seem forget it.

but today,

a person words,

have make me feel touch,

'it was my platform' this platform can make me perform,

maybe no one can understood how this words can inspire me,

but it touch me deeply!

it burn my passion,

by watching it,

it make me realize my dream,

i din lost it,

i just temporary leave it,

an inspiration words is enough to burn my passion,

i need more effort!!!

i need see hope of my dream....

and clear the cloud of the sky,

one day my dream will appear on the sky,

with the rainbow hanging it,

where it sign,

LET OUR DREAM ROLL....

one day,

i will find the way to it,

now it just the beginning,

i need more fuel to burn......

dream....

i want to find U!

我又再次迷失方向，
在那十字路口，
不懂我要往那走。

再次的迷茫，
让我变得更慌，
时间一直在跑，
更不上节奏的我，
开始感到压力。

或许，
我早应该认清，
我要的是什么，

但，
这一却已太迟了，

或许，
我一直不曾认识自已，

开始想，
梦想，理想，
是什么？
它们好像在岁月中，
慢慢的消失。

很多感觉也一样，
不见了。

我好像失忆一样，
突然，
什么都忘了。

是不是天太暗了，
我看不到，
还是我还在睡呢？

或许，
我累了，
该休息了！

在停了，
重新找回那个我，
那个曾经有过理想，
不知天高低厚的我！

未来，
我不知道会怎样？
我也不懂要如何走。。。

或许，
我不该想那么多，
尝试一步一步的走，
可能还会看到我要走的路。

Realize

it was suddenly realize that
my previous act has it mean.

That day,
i was lost direction while driving,
at that time, every where was having traffic jam.
i turn around and tried to find shortcut,
a way out that can save my time and avoid long queue.
i tried many time,
trust my gut and instinct,
even it proved wrong at the end.
it end up,
i taken more time and still stuck in traffic.

Today,
i realize, that day act symbol my present life,
i was lost in searching my way,
i try to find direction as well as shortcut of it,
i let my emotion and impatient flow with me,
and find it like a bull with eyes cover.
i does not want the ending of my future search end up like that day,
when seat still and think,
i should stay calm and go through the path slowly,
step by step,
until the mist is gone,
and i was clear where i want to go.

it was like a FLASH

FLASH....

to describe my life event,

it was a moment,

next moment i was with another new life.

WOW

i no have many time to thinK and flash back all memory,

not even have much time to adapt all the change,

suddenly,

it gone, another new in.

recently,

i mean this 2 to 3 month,

i live in the life of speed,

all is about speed,

i wonder is it because i work at RE,

so everything on my life was in express lane?

Life at RE always running,

after end it,

i thought my busy life will stop,

and i have a good rest.

but all turn opposite,

i still busy,

what i busy, is trip and socialise!

haha,

my life everyday fully pack for 12 day,

i only have 1 day good rest at home,

the rest is OUT.

my housemate keep seeing me disappear all the time,

i merely sleep at home for 5 day,

the rest i spent my night no where else.

i was amaze with my nomad life that i not even think of.

at first,

i thought it time for me to settle down after internship,

and think about my future,

yet, i have to much thing occupied,

until i cant breath.

this need to do,

that need to do,

i even no have time to write blog for my vacation,

will write one when i fully settle down at hometown.

after internship,

my first trip is with my fellow coursemates to penang,

it was memorable trip where we all gather for the last 2 time,

hopefully still can gather more in future.

the trip make me know my coursemate more better,

some i seldom talk to,

but this trip, make me know more about each other,

as well as know more,

where each going for their future,

wishes every of them find they dream, (for those who dont know yet, include me)

and live with their dream,

most important is do something that they like.

hope everyone achieve what they want in life.

all the best psykid.

opps..

seem my post gonna to end here,

but not yet,

i still have many things haven write.

second trip,

is a short trip to taiping,

the purpose is to stop over,

and taste en wan 's shop foods and drinks,

since she said is so nice and delicious,

it true as what she said,

the coffee and foods is nice,

but i cant write a good recommendation with my limited vocabulary.

after taiping,

i stay at home for 2 day,

next day,

i went to my kluang for my next trip with my shengxue senior,

we went to zenxing organic farm,

uk farm,

on the way back,

we stop at malacca,

for that 2 day trip,

i consume 9 glass of coffee,

it because all the way,

i been induce by the aroma of coffee,

all great coffee,

make me cant resist the temptation!

it was crazy,

and break my ultimate record in my life.

the next week,

actually is this week,

i busy socialize,

i not simply socialize,

actually another way to expose what i can do in future,

few opportunities came to me,

but one thing is i not sure what i want.

i got few choice,

all the choice want me back to KL,

it seem i have more prospect here!

but i dunno whether i will be back,

actually it was great when few people said:

i have potential in their field,

thanks for that,

hope i can find out early,

what i really one,

but not simple step in any field,

due to desperate.

it better start late,

but plan well.

that all today,

finally it end.

tommorrow will begin my sabah trip.

HOORAT for another journey of life.

simply enjoy my one month vacation,

sure,

i din provide much chance to do that in future,

it can,

depend on the path i take!

THE END OF INTERNSHIP

My ship have reach the shore,

it sign the end of INTERNSHIP journey.

as well as signal

FINISHED DEGREE

I had gone thought it,

sailing thought the rolling waves and thunder storms,

as well as raining and shining day.

when flash back,

it was a memorable memory,

that i still miss and happy that i have gone thought.

during sailing,

the whole journey it was so tough,

but when i pass thought it,

i am glad and gratitude for the journey i had walked,

i had become another ME,

the better the stronger ME.

Sincerely i thank my company for this intensive training,

i know without challenging and stress,

i wont growth and developed that much.

Finally week,

it full of mix feeling,

with happy feeling when i think of it shall end soon,

with missing feeling when i think i gonna leave,

with feeling stress when i think i want close more sales last week,

at the end,

i cant really enjoy the last few day,

however,

it was bad because my sales drop this week,

with 3 pending cases,

and many still on progress,

all was hanging around,

During my sales meeting,

luckly my boss din question me why,

but other intern been question about the drop,

i guess she no longer need question me about it,

since i leaving next day.

sometime when thinking of leaving,

my face will show a big smiles,

hooray....

all colleagues and interns can see it,

some envy that i can escape the rat race soon,

while i happy i gonna to put down the burden,

before i go,

i would like to make thing clear,

settle all the things i at my hand,

i use the last day to segregate all the piles into categories,

neatly arrange to make my supervisor life easy,

so she wont curse me when i m not there.)

i was workaholic,

that i strive to send 6 resume out on my last day,

other said why i so pia,

last day dont need to do anymore,

but last day still my working day,

i dont like stop doing nothing,

since company paid,

i have my duty for it.

but too bad, i not able to follow up the candidates that i had sent out,

and report the 3 sales i had close.

During last 2 day,

my boss approach to me again,

i guess my manager have let her know i turn down the offer last week,

she want me stay back and talk to me,

for a moment since she busy,

she make things clear,

i was given another chance,

to convince my parents,

and accept offer within one month.

honestly,

i m gratitude for chance given to me,

i really have to thank my boss and manager for the offer,

even i turn them down,

they still give me another chance,

my boss said she like me,

as the way i work and enjoy to have me on board,

both of them think i have potential at this field.

i guess so,

dealing with human is what i good at.

what make me feel more gratitude is,

i asked for reference letter from my manager last week,

i was so happy she willing to give me one,

she used to said,

i wont simply give reference letter if she thought the person not deserve,

i glad she said yes,

but she might need to talk to boss and gave me later,

at that moment,

i kind of confuse,

a reference letter have to take so long?

but i realize she actually wish i stay and gave me second chance...(my assumption)

last day,

i was surprise when i saw a letter on my table,

when i was conducting interview,

at the moment i felt so touch,

i felt the company treat me so good.

it great honor to be able to work at RE.

But too bad,

it not the path i will choose.

i will never forget the day i was there,

i will always appreciate everything that RE gave to me,

it teach me a lot,

and built right attitude with me,

i hope with all the foundation that RE laid on me,

which help me in the future,

at the end,

i feel proud as intern at RE.

it was my honor to be there.

Thank everyone who accompany me on board.

my workstation at RE