I am lost

recently many things happen, all keep accumulated into my small saturate heart.....i know maybe i will blow ....just the matter of time ...

time has keep me busy from managing myself......it make me no time to clear my toxic emotions....undoubted...i am stress this few days....i believe most of my coursemates have feel the same as well.....even though i still have time to sleep but it not adequate for me....sleep can help healing my mood....it did help.....when i take a nap this evening.......i feel myself alive after the nap.....i feel better....at least not a gloomy thought.....i dunno maybe i have some mild depression......but unseeable one......

in the mid of busy.....actually i feel lost...in term of what i really want and what i really done.....many things undone and messy in my life.....it was not organize.....deep in me .....i know something go wrong....but still haven figure out....i know i lost again.....a sense of helplessness came haunted me again.....everything seem to be fine at the surface....but i know inner me have many gloomy....with clouds shading the light of sun.....i dunno how to describe what happen....why i feel that....it simply adding of small pieces which i hardly mention the overall reasons....


i really feel gratitude to god for what i have now....i have a big family ...psykids.....all was my source of support......my parents for understanding me.....my best friend who i din really chat with her so long since i busy all the time......hope she will understanding me and it wont affect our friendship......i did scare....distance will cause us to be far....no only physical....but the time was the part.......but i believe we can held the strong bond since past have proof we did.....i know i need to find the source n find back myself.....i only need some rest.....before i begin the new journey.....