情绪化

不懂何时我快变成草莓族，
那么的脆弱，
那么承受不了挫折，
一碰就脆！

一直以来我都把挫折当训练，
把挑战当好友，
但最近的我，
好像变得很疲倦，
身心都很累，
累到我睡12小时，
还是起不来。。。。

我又再次走入低潮，
当那一却无奈，
那一却不辛，
那一片片黑云，
下不完的大雨，
这时，
脆弱的我，
真的承不下去。。。。

我最讨厌就是，
那些不好总是一次过的找你，
一点也没给你时间疗伤！
一次有一次的刺激你，
但，
这就是人生。。。
无时无刻都在挑战你，
尝试你的程度，
看你有多少的忍耐。。。

用另一方面想，
或许，
挫折并完全是坏的，
它让我领悟很多，
它教我很多，
面对它，
我才知道我的能力，
它还能让我知道，
谁才是真心对你的。。。

或许，
现在的我在山中，
在往难处爬，
在这时刻，
我已用了全神力量，
的往前爬。。。
它用尽了我所有的精力，
但只要我要着牙根，
过了这一关，
我又向前多一步。。。。

写完了。。。
感觉较好了。。。
情绪，
就像下雨一样，
一下子就天晴了！

The journey of JOB HUNTING

it was another life journey,

start once i out from student identity,

the process was AWESOME,

why?

it was the unforgettable experience,

the one month hunting period,

the whole process was like sitting on roller coaster,

sometime up sometime down,

it begin with queue up for game,

sent application and hunt for right job,

then waiting for the roller coaster to move,

sometime it move to higher point when move to new stage,

sometime it drop to lower point when no news,

i m great that i was quite lucky for the whole process,

where it provide me choice to choose which i want,

it struggle and hard to make the right decision,

along the way,

there was few opportunity which i lucky to came across,

but i was target the right one,

i would like to start it right,

rather be sorry that i start wrong for first time,

so i think i rather to choosy and picky,

i admit i was this type of graduate...

after the long journey,

finally i reach the end of the journey,

after the long process of apply, wait, interviews ...

the process was long,

i been using 1 month waiting for application process,

mb because i was not available for interview since i at kch,

however,

i was glad to experience a number of interview,

i am happy that i pass each stage,

the happiness when u reach to the last stage of it,

i even receive opportunity where i not even interview but was great offer,

some i only go for phone interview then was quite good offer as well,

my job hunting experience was GREAT,

it was differ kind of experience,

i gratitude i go through it,

it really test my patient and my skills,

where it was a very begin stage to knock the door of the market,

now it time to step in,

hope i do great!

7月+ 8 月 《之旅》

这两个月，

我的旅程是超出我预料，

是一个《NO PLANNING》的开始，

很多人问我，

实习后有什们打算呢？？？

我总会回答：

没打算就是我的打算！

两个月内

我竟然到处跑，到处玩，

去了好几个地方。。。

实习完了，

我第一个的旅程是和Psykid 的四天三夜槟城毕业旅，

整个旅程注重于集合大家，

毕竟未来的日子，

大家将往自已的路走，

见面也较少，集在一起也很难，

但无论我们在那，

我们都是psykid 一家人。

在一起的时光。。。·@penang 之旅

我们一起疯狂的照片。。。@@

毕业旅完之后，

我向太平半天游，

去尝试恩万店的美食，

然后逛逛太平中心。。。

我和melia拍下我们在太平的证据。。。

下一站，

我在9日-10日，

和波哥去找佩韵, chin fang 他们，

跑去kluang的uk farm,

又去organic farm...

过了接近大自然的一天，

过后我们去马六甲，

游了半天。。。

美丽的大自然。。。

yeah, 坐了四个钟车程，我终于来到UK FARM了！！！

来到kluang 最久的kopitiam。。。那两天我喝了九杯咖啡。。。破了我人生记录。。

在我还没离开kl,

我找那好久没见的实习朋友，

来个集会，

顺便三八一下。。。

还和我的housemate,

一起集合，来个farewell meet....

这两个月我很高兴认识他们，

他们让我的两个月变得很精彩。。。

跟我坐在同一艘船的实习朋友。。。

可爱的Housemate 们。。。

13日-18日，

我，恩万和grace,

我们三人游到kota kinabalu,

我们kk之旅可说是个无计划的旅行，

只租了酒店，

临时才计划隔天的旅程，

还租了一辆viva...

三人到处跑。。

在网上看到那里好玩就驾车去，

真的有点刺激又好玩。。。。

我们租了viva,而我做了几天的司机。。。我们竟然用viva上神山，还好上的去下的回。。

我们在kk的合照。。。美丽的风景。。。为我们kk之旅留念

19日-21日，

恩万和grace,

来到我家乡kuching,

我如游客般，

带她们到处参观，

可惜，

我这导游，

住了20多年，

却对kuching的地方一知半解，

找来了我们kuching朋友eddie,

帮我想那里好玩。。。

真失礼。

在kch的合照

玩了整个7月，

我终于回来家，

静了下来，

为我的未来打算，

寻找我的方向，

也开始找工的过程。。。

8 月，

5日-10日，

临时，

我们全家决定去新加坡，

就这样我在新加坡的universal studio 过我的生日，

今年，

我的生日很特别，

不是因为有任何的庆祝，

而是出生23年，

在我出生日。

重来我出生的地方，。。

感觉有点不同。。。

好像你离开一个地方好久，

在特别的日子重游次地那种感觉。。。

Universal studio 之旅

11日-18日

我跑到kl ,

近一步的寻找工作，

也找些朋友见见面，诉诉久。。

之后的八月，

我还继续寻工过程，

过这随心所欲的日子，

几点睡和几点起，

都没关系，

日子过了轻松，

但无趣！

整个找工过程真的很难忘，

但我知道要珍惜现在那无忧无虑的日子。。

享受它吧！

*说要记录我的旅程很久以前，讲了很久，今天终于我成功写完了，大功告成！*

Inspiration!

today....

some word have inspire me,

the long forgotten dream,

a hidden dream which i left behind after rain and thunder,

i seem forget it.

but today,

a person words,

have make me feel touch,

'it was my platform' this platform can make me perform,

maybe no one can understood how this words can inspire me,

but it touch me deeply!

it burn my passion,

by watching it,

it make me realize my dream,

i din lost it,

i just temporary leave it,

an inspiration words is enough to burn my passion,

i need more effort!!!

i need see hope of my dream....

and clear the cloud of the sky,

one day my dream will appear on the sky,

with the rainbow hanging it,

where it sign,

LET OUR DREAM ROLL....

one day,

i will find the way to it,

now it just the beginning,

i need more fuel to burn......

dream....

i want to find U!

我又再次迷失方向，
在那十字路口，
不懂我要往那走。

再次的迷茫，
让我变得更慌，
时间一直在跑，
更不上节奏的我，
开始感到压力。

或许，
我早应该认清，
我要的是什么，

但，
这一却已太迟了，

或许，
我一直不曾认识自已，

开始想，
梦想，理想，
是什么？
它们好像在岁月中，
慢慢的消失。

很多感觉也一样，
不见了。

我好像失忆一样，
突然，
什么都忘了。

是不是天太暗了，
我看不到，
还是我还在睡呢？

或许，
我累了，
该休息了！

在停了，
重新找回那个我，
那个曾经有过理想，
不知天高低厚的我！

未来，
我不知道会怎样？
我也不懂要如何走。。。

或许，
我不该想那么多，
尝试一步一步的走，
可能还会看到我要走的路。

Realize

it was suddenly realize that
my previous act has it mean.

That day,
i was lost direction while driving,
at that time, every where was having traffic jam.
i turn around and tried to find shortcut,
a way out that can save my time and avoid long queue.
i tried many time,
trust my gut and instinct,
even it proved wrong at the end.
it end up,
i taken more time and still stuck in traffic.

Today,
i realize, that day act symbol my present life,
i was lost in searching my way,
i try to find direction as well as shortcut of it,
i let my emotion and impatient flow with me,
and find it like a bull with eyes cover.
i does not want the ending of my future search end up like that day,
when seat still and think,
i should stay calm and go through the path slowly,
step by step,
until the mist is gone,
and i was clear where i want to go.

it was like a FLASH

FLASH....

to describe my life event,

it was a moment,

next moment i was with another new life.

WOW

i no have many time to thinK and flash back all memory,

not even have much time to adapt all the change,

suddenly,

it gone, another new in.

recently,

i mean this 2 to 3 month,

i live in the life of speed,

all is about speed,

i wonder is it because i work at RE,

so everything on my life was in express lane?

Life at RE always running,

after end it,

i thought my busy life will stop,

and i have a good rest.

but all turn opposite,

i still busy,

what i busy, is trip and socialise!

haha,

my life everyday fully pack for 12 day,

i only have 1 day good rest at home,

the rest is OUT.

my housemate keep seeing me disappear all the time,

i merely sleep at home for 5 day,

the rest i spent my night no where else.

i was amaze with my nomad life that i not even think of.

at first,

i thought it time for me to settle down after internship,

and think about my future,

yet, i have to much thing occupied,

until i cant breath.

this need to do,

that need to do,

i even no have time to write blog for my vacation,

will write one when i fully settle down at hometown.

after internship,

my first trip is with my fellow coursemates to penang,

it was memorable trip where we all gather for the last 2 time,

hopefully still can gather more in future.

the trip make me know my coursemate more better,

some i seldom talk to,

but this trip, make me know more about each other,

as well as know more,

where each going for their future,

wishes every of them find they dream, (for those who dont know yet, include me)

and live with their dream,

most important is do something that they like.

hope everyone achieve what they want in life.

all the best psykid.

opps..

seem my post gonna to end here,

but not yet,

i still have many things haven write.

second trip,

is a short trip to taiping,

the purpose is to stop over,

and taste en wan 's shop foods and drinks,

since she said is so nice and delicious,

it true as what she said,

the coffee and foods is nice,

but i cant write a good recommendation with my limited vocabulary.

after taiping,

i stay at home for 2 day,

next day,

i went to my kluang for my next trip with my shengxue senior,

we went to zenxing organic farm,

uk farm,

on the way back,

we stop at malacca,

for that 2 day trip,

i consume 9 glass of coffee,

it because all the way,

i been induce by the aroma of coffee,

all great coffee,

make me cant resist the temptation!

it was crazy,

and break my ultimate record in my life.

the next week,

actually is this week,

i busy socialize,

i not simply socialize,

actually another way to expose what i can do in future,

few opportunities came to me,

but one thing is i not sure what i want.

i got few choice,

all the choice want me back to KL,

it seem i have more prospect here!

but i dunno whether i will be back,

actually it was great when few people said:

i have potential in their field,

thanks for that,

hope i can find out early,

what i really one,

but not simple step in any field,

due to desperate.

it better start late,

but plan well.

that all today,

finally it end.

tommorrow will begin my sabah trip.

HOORAT for another journey of life.

simply enjoy my one month vacation,

sure,

i din provide much chance to do that in future,

it can,

depend on the path i take!