It has been a while since i graduated....

After calculating the months,
It has been 1 year 5 months since i officially graduated from University,
Time just flight, and it been a while i did not write in my blog,
2013, this is my first post....
There are something that trigger me to write this post,
I have the strong feeling wanted to write down my thought after read an article.

Since graduated,
Everyone walked they own path,
Gradually i disconnected to many of my friends out there,
Sometime it was such a wake that i saw my friends news somewhere out there,
Either in the newspaper, video, up the stage of the public seminar i attended or Facebook's wall that tell me how success they was....
Many of my friends out there which i consider them as one (if they are in my list of friend in Facebook) did very well out there.
Sometimes, they achievement inspired me,
Proud to say, many are from my University,
It really proud to know that many of UKMer success in the field that they persued
Some are the juniors that i knew and they really outshine it the market,
That make me feel : " Not bad, my University have a lot of talent inside".

Some of my friends have actually won awards, scholarship, or started they own business....
One common among them are " They go after they dream and do what they want!"
I always believe this : You will be very success if you do what you want...
The questions is Are you doing what you love and want?
If you are, you have 50% of success rate and plus 50% is another factors (eg: determination, skills....)
If you asked me: Did i doing what i want or love?
The answer is ...........
You can find out from me whether i am or not,
Cause the person who doing something they like, it so different ....you can sense that....

Congratulation for those who achieve something and doing what you like,
Thanks for make us (UKMer proud) or your friend proud of you.
Wish someday i can be the one that make my friends proud of me.

 

A problem is not a problem when you see opportunities in it!

Today,

This lesson taught me the long forgotten theory of life,

How many people in this world,

Success because they see problem so difference,

For them, Problem is just another way to make things better,

Problem is another platform to improve,

Problem is where it tell you this dont work!

In this world,

How many people have success,

When their seize opportunities in every problem.

How many business are build to solve problem,

Like those consulting company, counseling centre....

Everyone of us solve problem every moment,

Some people see it as a problem,

They choose to grumble about it,

Start complaint and blame people for it,

or another choice,

Is see opportunities in it,

And solve it.

Which one are you?

I cant see

I cant see my future,

Which i thought i saw it last time!

Another words,

I am lost.

Many times i keep thinking,

Whether my dream still burning?

Or i still remember where i want to go?

Lost is a scary,

With a lot of fear...

It just like you step into the jungle,

Alone and it on dark night!

With unclear path lay upon you,

You have choice,

To choose which path you want to take,

But you are unclear where is your destination,

When your future is still dark,

Step by step you run,

Hope to reach the end, 

But where is my end,

It seem no end!

Where each stop is another begin,

I keep running and running,

Yet still in the same path with no ending....

Maybe i am comfort with the path i took,

Where i am so bless with what i have,

That make me even lost!

So, I am blind,

For this moment,

I am busy running to the end,

But cant see the direction and destination!

Change

Change, 

it always remind me the most constant things in the world is CHANGE!

it undeniable,

i always know the facts people change, world change and definitely everything change.

When look back to past,

i always realize how much changes i have made!

the me today is never be the me yesterday.

Change is a must,

No one can remain unchanged.

no matter what things always change even u remain the same. 

Sometime, 

i feel change is very traumatic,

it move u from one end to the other end of your emotion scales,

just a few secs,

you can feel the impacts,

some people change faster than the speed of light....

it make me feel that why this people at that moment is like this,

next moment is like that!

One haunted change i felt is how much people surround u change,

in just a short of time,

many things become different,

Please dont be naive that things will remain the same,

and people will be always like this!

No!

I learned from this nature law of world,

is keep changing....

i think i still too passive in changing,

which i am seeking more visible and dramatic change in me,

i know i need changes in many ways,

it so importance to change yourself,

but i means here is the good change,

However sometime u not able to tell the change is good or bad,

because u not able to tell,

i always hold this belief,

good or bad of anything is not an absolute,

when u thought it was a good things,

but next moment u found out actually it not a good things.

In this world today,

i really think we need change to survive,

many things changes,

the government, economic, financial, all you could name it...

but none of the changes faster than a person change.

I experienced a person who is this,

and it shocked me when i see the process this person change,

sometime this type of change leave us trauma,

and it make us feel upset and frustration,

with the question,

why he/she become like this?

let not look external, 

sometimes even ourselves dont aware we change,

until someone told us.

Reality is 

many changes is not beyond your control,

and a small change lead to another change,

the impact is keep rolling,

Once i face that this and that is not what i can control, 

because it beyond my control,

instead of let it keep control me,

i make an effort to change,

every little change make impact on me,

what the biggest challenges is perspective change.

many things change when u change your views and belief,

you will find out how the world is difference.

I know change is a part of my life,

i know it not only me,

it also mean my environments, people, ...

i always give change a chance,

and go for positive change.

just a moment ago,

i watched the video that my friend who have make a change,

i proud of her,

and i m glad i support her to make the change,

and given any chance,

i willing to change the world for better place,

Let us together make changes,

Changes toward positive.

Changes toward better us.

Changes toward a better future!

不同的人生

我要的是不一样的人生，
不是那平凡又无味的生活。。。

突然很有感触，
很想过非一般的生活，
过这那有使命感的人生。。
不是为自已而活，
而是为社会奉献。。。

我想乘着我还年轻，
还能做些别人认为疯狂的事情，
那怕我会一无所有，
但我却过这有意义的人生。。。

我能做到吗？
我有勇气去走吗？
我能不能放下我的责任，
现在的答案。。。
还是不能！
但并不表示，
我以后不能！

Quick update on my life

It have been 7 months since i stepped out the university door,
This 7 months, I have gone throught differ life,
One things i am glad is I like my life now,
Even though many happening that really smack me and give slaps,
That wake me up and bring me to reality.
Frankly, i feel i am blessed person,
Till today life was smooth to me,
I always tell myself i am very fortune person,
As i always have many great people come into my life,
Each of them make my life difference.
There are people willing to guide me and taught this ignorance kid,
and there are person who appeared in the NEED momment with a pair of hand!

But life is changing,
as today is never be the same as yesterday,
when faces changes,
sometime i still on the unacceptacle stages,
wonder around with my emotions,
Many happenings recently,
Which gave me a stunt and slap,
People who wake me up,
I have to thank them,
i always have a believe Thank those people who make my life suck!
Yes, they make me hurt,
But at the same time they grow me,
without them, i still in ignorance stage.
They told me what i still inadequate,
They let me know how much efforts i need to put...
They words as sharp as the knife, as clear as water...
It hurt definitely,
But rather be hurt,
It drives me to be better me,
As life always taught me,
I need to improve!

As time pass,
I understand why i am like this,
I like a challenge life,
which it make my heart pump faster and adrenaline rush,
that make sense when i like to ride roller coasters,
It seem able to make me feel my heart pumping,
and once again i feel i m alive...

In life when we open our heart and eyes,
we can realize a lot of things,
I m still learning and improving,
I know i am neither too young or too old,
I have many dream that i wishes i can achieve it,
but it take time,
Sometime i hope the world create a shortcut for me to achieve!
I always believe,
There are nothing greater to have a dream and persue it.
But recently one of my friend,
make me realize dream is important,
It is truth to focus on dream,
But at the same time,
Life still have many things u need to concern not only your dream,
what is the purpose when you achieve to the top,
Yet you are alone and you seem forget what the reason you want to be at top,
Because all the while what u focus is the destiny not the passion!

In life,
I have experience what it mean doing what you like,
One day,
My friend told me,
It very differ from what i can see you from other who have worked,
you seem to enjoy what you doing.
In fact,
I did.
Up till now,
I still look forward everyday of my day.
There are one day,
when i saw 2 waitress at restaurant,
what i can see the differ of them is,
one is so passion and enjoy her work
while another one work for survive.
Then it make me understand how important to doing what you like.
But here is the ponder:
If you need to make choice between what you like & materialistic, what choice you will choose?

In short,
this 7 months is the wonderful journey for me,
from the day i want to start my another chapter here,
where i have no base, no job, no plan, and only a thought!
till now,
everything was far from my imagination....
I appreaciate every moment of my life,
As i always believe,
Everything happens for reasons,
Maybe i cant see today,
but i will realize it some day in future.

放下它

它捆牢了我好久，
每次为了它我就情绪化，
一次有一次的被它主宰，
也埋怨好久，
一直为它抖抖转转。。。
今天我终于想通了，
也做了决定，
面对它，处理它，接受它，放下它，
我不想在这样下去，
其实，
只要换个观点，
它就变得不同！
我一直看到的是我没有的一却，但却忽略我拥有的一切。。。
决定放下它，
那感觉好好，
不在被困着，
从今天我会专注我要的，不是不要的！